Mom I'm hungry , there isn't any bread ,
Mom I'm tired I haven't been fed.
I sit in my room feeling despair
wondering how my life went from here to there.
We had it all nice house and nice cars
he had his vices the work and the bars
I had my friends and my hobbies to do
I had my mother and my wants were few
Many told me not to let him go out
My love was sure I had no doubts
I slept at his side from dark till dawn
I sat at his side with with kids in the lawn
He called me "Love" and hugged me much ,
at night he kissed with a loving touch.
My mother was called with angels above
In my grief he held me with tender Love.
I remember the morn we made love and he showered
his pager went off and in a blink i sat cowered.
The woman sayed she was his forever and more
my world was shatterd when she signed off "Mi Amor"
It got bad as I fought in a silent war,
to keep my marriage from a slamming door.
Now its been a year I'm in an empty house ,
no food in the fridge , no seat but the couch.
I try to smile to keep it inside,
For my babies I smile my grief to hide.
But somehow I'll make it and love again
I have much to offer when my heart will mend
I have faith and love in leaps and bounds
I believe in forever and upside down frowns
I married for love never his money
he won me with a touch and words of honey
Maybe someday he'll fill his needs
maybe someday he'll face his deeds
But in this world I have no time to lose
I can no longer play at being the fool
I love and lost , this war she won
they can play their games as the world they con.
me and my baies will make it somehow
maybe we're hungry just for right now
But we have each other , we have a bed
we have our love with that we'll be fed.
I guess I can walk out my door with a smile
and get my hugs as we walk that mile.
There's a tommorow I learned, that was God's plan
a hard lesson it was but I'm still his fan
learn from us my children and I
watch us walk and than we'll fly !!!
copyright 2000
Loretta Gonzales
