Swallow
Question:
Could you get HIV through swallowing?
I
really don’t know. Well, I’m aware that an open wound in the mouth could
be an entry point for the virus but other than that…? I mean could we get
the virus if we ingest semen or blood—gingivitis—positive of HIV?
I
did heard before that HIV wouldn’t be able to survive the gastric acid in
our stomach… I just heard… hmmm…
When
I went to watch “Bathhouse” I was handed with leaflets and most of the
leaflets were from Remidios AIDS Foundation. That wasn’t the first time I
heard about this foundation although all I know about them is limited to
that they help AIDS victims and perhaps the prevention through education.
That is all I know. I really don’t know the dynamic of the foundation.
Anyhow, I wanted to be involved with them, as a volunteer. I asked the girl
who was at the entrance of the theater about the foundation but she was
clueless and just told me to visit the address. Perhaps, I would.
Well,
I am not affiliated to any organization. I thought I should be. I’m
actually eyeing Pro-Gay Philippines but my problem with this group is that
they deal with homosexual political issues. And that there are some issues
that they have that I actually don’t believe. I could do them (if they
would have me) but I think I would limit myself to working on the side.
I
don’t swallow. I actually don’t like giving heads. It’s not my
favorite in the menu but I order it from time to time, usually to get it
too… or that, sometimes, I feel I owe my partner that.
To
what I understand, Blowjob is more of a power trip rather than liking how a
dick feels and taste in the mouth. The pleasure of the one giving it is not
there but it’s on seeing, hearing and feeling the one being performed on
squirm, moan and tense in sheer pleasure—wanting more, pushed to almost
insanity. Now, blowjob is not called a job for nothing. It takes a lot:
right breathing rhythm, muscle works and control. How many times was I
pushed way down by my partner, in pursuit of a deep throat, did I gag and
almost to a vomit? But despite all this, we go back for it… it feels good
to know that we could bring that much pleasure.
I
hate the taste of semen. I just don’t like it.
I
actually have no problem if I turn out HIV positive (not that I am feeling
any symptoms or that I have reason to believe I have it). And that the only
reason I require wearing of condom each time is not for my protection but my
partner’s and his other would be partners. What if I have it already?
I
have no problem having it. I have no problem dying. Well, I have no one.
Sure, perhaps I would be missed. My mom would be devastated if I die but
then other than that… I won’t be that big of a lost. It’s not like
I’m a vital part of the family’s finances and no one is actually
dependent on me.
Before,
I actually keep a list of the people I have slept with—names or name that
I gave them, contact number if I have it, and, or, where we found each
other. I kept a list not because of vanity—I have slept with this much
men. It was because just encase I turn out positive of the virus. It’s not
to pinpoint who gave it to me. I don’t see the point on that. But, I was
to warn them that I have it and that it would be best if they have
themselves tested too…
I
stopped listing because I felt ashamed to have slept with all that men most
of them I only meet that once and never again.
Swallow.
I heard apple juice could enhance the taste of semen… I don’t know how
or if it’s true, I just heard. I did read from somewhere but credible
reading material that smoking could affect the taste of semen negatively.
Actually, smoking could affect sperm production and could cause abnormality
in sperm cells.
Swallow.
January
26, 2005/Wednesday