12.17.03

The small droplets fall
As I wait for your call.
I'm watching the rain
Falling as I feel the pain.
           Do you still remember
           The last time we've been together?
           It was raining; we were both wet
           When we met
           In front of the coffee shop
           Where we both drank a cup.
           That was a long time ago.
           That was the day you let go.
           You called me on the phone
           When I was home, alone.
           You had to see me;
           I was so happy.
           I was glad you remembered our day.
           I had to plan the things I wanted to say.
           We've been with each other a long time...
           A long time since you were mine.
           I came down the stairs
           And saw that weather was fair.
           Left my umbrella by the door,
           Thinking it wouldn't rain anymore.
           I passed the park
           Where we kissed in the dark;
           Passed the street
           Where we always meet;
           Passed the store
           That we had always adored...
           Then came the rain pouring down
           Soaking my favorite gown.
           And there you were, smiling at me.
           And we both went in for a cup of coffee.
           When we were both done
           And the coffee was gone,
           Said thank you that you remembered our day;
           Smiled and asked what you wanted to say.
           You said you wanted to talk
           While we took a walk.
           It was raining, but it was fine.
           It didn't matter that the sun didn't shine.
           Outside, your smile faded away
           And I wondered what you were going to say.
           I began to get nervous
           As you became more serious.
           Were you going to propose now?
           Were you going to give a vow?
           You opened your lips slowly
           And said that there was some other lady
           Ruling over your heart
           And now we have to part.
           I was dumbfounded.
           I wished I was dead.
           You took my hand
           As if trying to make me understand.
           I stared cold-hard
           You lying, cheating bastard...
           How could I
           Now that you're saying goodbye?
           And this was our day!!!
           So this was what you wanted to say!
           How could you!
           I loved you so true...
           You turned away from me
           And walked away until I could no longer see.
           I'm left standing here, soaked
           Feeling all the pain that you provoked.
The small droplets fall
As wait for your call.
Cause I still love you...
Even if you're with someone new.

11.10.05

It was a beautiful morning
When she came out today
The sun was brightly shining
As if to light her all the way

She was happy, smiling with glee
Or at least as long as her thoughts could be

Finally it struck her deep
What he said the night before
A cracking feeling began to seep
To remind her more and more

She was happy, smiling with glee
Or at least as long as her thoughts could be

The shades of flaming orange and yellow
Faded, diminished, grayed
Clouds chased the light to go
And it went, saddened, alone, betrayed.

She looked at herself, then gazed at the darkened sky
And then wondered why she wanted to cry

Best of efforts were all in vain
To chase away uninvited thoughts
Felt as though she’d go insane
Thinking and forgetting, trapped and caught

She looked at herself, then gazed at the darkened sky
And then wondered why she wanted to cry

07.07.05

He stared at his lover
Boxed inside four corners
Her smile cold, frozen
His heart torn, broken

He touched her face
As if to grasp some trace
His eyes began to blur
At this painful sight of her

She did not say a word
She would not strike a chord
The silence crushed him so
Oh, the thought of letting go

He whispered in her ear
But she could not hear
She only smiled at him
With eyes glazed and dim

Her face was a mere memory
A shadow of what she used to be
Her touch, her breath, her warmth no more
A fleeting moment of what was before

He stared at his lover
Boxed inside four corners
Refused to believe; embraced denial
She, imprisoned. Trapped. Immortal.

09.21.04

Hands chained overher head
For a moment her heart stopped dead
Lips sealed, sewed by black thread
It's her own silence that she dreads

Her whole body is paralyzed
Utter fear reflects in her eyes
No one else could hear her cries
Constant terror tugs inside

Tearing flesh, unrecognizable pain
Slowly, slowly, driving her insane
She knows well this permanent stain
Will forever, forever, forever remain

Eyes glazed, staring overhead
She wished hard she was dead
There on the sheets of her bed
The mark, the stain of virgin red

Kill me, kill me, death is better
Life now does not matter
Better to be six feet under
Than be torn, broken, and shattered