Songs and poetry

NOTES: The songs on this page are mine. ... Though "Thanks For Nothing" is based on the tune to Dido's "Thankyou" (no copywrite infringement in intended - I make no money from it). Please do not uuse them in anyway without my permission or you'll make me a VERY unhappy chappy. If you like the songs, but can't work out a tune or just want to hear my wonderful singing voice, then email me (fpvs_smh@yahoo.com) and I'll send u a *.zip file with the tune (me singing it so I don't forget the way it goes). I may take a bit to send (often I have a bad connection - aka modem - or not online much), but you will get it ... eventually.
Occasionally I'll upload a file so you can just download from here, but they're *.wav files, zipped (they only option for recording on my lap-top) and these files are HUGE. If u know a better program, feel free to recomend it to me :o)
Further NOTES: 1. *words* symbolises notes. ie. what I wrote the song about, etc.
2. ({brackets}) this means words possibly emitted - used in conjunction with "/" means alternate words.

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Free
Future
Silvery Moon
Ball Of Energy
Storm
Life
Dreaming Life
Apocolypse
One, Two, Three
Remember Me

Some Sweet Thoughts
Identify
Stars inside
It All
Train of life
Yours
Live a bit
1.
2.
Buffy-Spike

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*These songs are in order of creation. I used to have all of my songs/poems up... I've decided against that... Ppl I made come here... They'd read 3, 4, 5 bad ones in a row and stop reading... So these are the best... My favourites... If you wish to read others, email me. Otherwise, be happy with these ones, and enjoy!*


Free

Ooo, can't you see I've fallen down
I can't get up off of the ground
The gravity is pulling me,
Why can't you see and set me free.

Won't you come and set me free,
Why can't you see and set me free,
Won't you come and set me free,
I wanna be heard so will you set me free

The truth be told I want to die,
A whole new life I wanna try
The masses scream, they want to be heard
They want a whole new big, round world.

---But my heart, it's screaming down
Why won't you see, will you turn around
I need release from these chains surrounding me,
Won't you come and set me down!

Won't you come and set me free,
Won't you come and set me down,
Won't you come and set me free,
I wanna be heard so will you set me free

Won't you come and set me down,
Be a saint, now, turn around
The shackles rust, you've lost your hold,
So won't you come and set me free!

Won't you come and set me free,
Won't you come and set me free,
Won't you come and set me free,
I wanna be heard so will you set me free

Won't you come and set me free,
Will you come and set me free,
Won't you come and set me free,
I will be heard now, set me free.

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Future

Aliens - they're running round the house.
Freedom - they want it more than us.
Explanations will never be told
Confusion - has always got a hold.

We - just want to be around
To see the world when it hits the ground.
Faces request attention from the rest of us
So give attention or it'll start to rust.

Can't you see our motto now?
Nonsence taking over this poor cow.
Happiness will be given to it
With this freedem we turn to grit.

The doomsday device is to be turned to ice
But the world heats up and melts it nice
The world is doomed and it's been for a while
Let the junk pile up for a mile.

Contaminate it we shall for ever
The world slides down the winding river
At the end the waterfall...
The world's future? Some more shopping malls.

Down the hole we're slipping now,
Down the hole we're slipping now,
Round the plug hole is our home,
Down the hole we're slipping now.

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Silvery moon (22/10/01)

Silvery moon why won't you shine down on me
I look above and cannot even breathe
The beauty and magnicance of you
Is that which makes me make it through it's true.

So shine down ... On me.
I will not choose another
Shine down ... on me.
I believe I'll love you for-eve-er.

Silvery moon why won't you shine down on me
I look above and cannot even breathe
A true true night allows me to be watching you
An ambient light allows the truth of you, it's true.

It is true. So true, true, true ... true, true, true.
Be there ... for me.
Oh please be there, I promise you.

The stars, they seem so lonely without you
Just a cresent and they seem complete - with you
A shooting star, it seems so perfect - with you
So please be there, with honesty

Silvery moon why won't you shine down on me
I look above and cannot even breathe
The sun is gone, so i need you now more than ever
The clouds disappear so show your face to me.

To me. Just show your face to me
The horizon starts to glow for you
You're here ... for me, for me
Your face is shining down

Silvery moon, your face it shines upon me now
I look above and cannot even breathe
The beauty and magnicance of you
Is that which makes me able to make it through

(Fading)
Silvery moon, your face it shines upon me now
I look above and cannot even breathe
The beauty and magnicance of you
Is that which makes me able to make it through

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Ball of Energy (23/10/01)
*my fave song - written about my Best Friend*

My ball of energy, it floats down upon me
An aura unmatched emits and flows upon the sea
You can't stop loving, it's a power controlling me
Will you see it and submit to its energy

No unjustice is done, yet dominates, it does
The beauty it flows, but confined, no jelousy
Hate, it shall not do, yet opinions, it voices
You shall not despise, it's allies are everywhere

She's tall, she's dark, she is a growing force surrounding us
Just wait, you'll see, succeeding where others fall
It flies accross, just like a Quiditch Snitch
My Ball of Energy, of every colour, I shall decide to list

My ball of energy, it floats down upon me
An aura unmatched emits and flows upon the sea
You can't stop loving, it's a power controlling me
Will you see it and submit to its energy

A human it ascends, it's a godly force
No death will shadow it, no fall will be it's end
Energy, we know, it never can be lost
Though changing forms, in memory she will be stored

Forever she shall sing, forever she exists
I'll see her soon, I'll see her always and never miss
You love her, I love, we love all of her power
Admire, not hate and together we shall envelope her

Destiny, it's written upon the stars
But she is of them and holds the cards
See the future, see the past, she is the god
The god of our generation, the Ball of Energy

She is god, she is power, my Ball of Energy
She is god, she is power, my Ball of Energy
She is god, she is power, my Ball of Energy
The truth, she holds, my Ball of Energy

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Storm (12~13/11/01)

Oooh, those kisses, making fishes
Down the rainbow stream
See those birdies, flying free
Calling out your name
Beautiful colours, fluttering wings
Butterflies in the sky
Sad, those leaves now,
Falling to the ground

Beauty swirling, mists emerging
Tornadoes whip your hair
Contemplating your elevation
Mother nature looking unfair
Canopies, of higher trees,
Shaking free their tenants
Which one did you like the most
Squirils sent to heaven

Horses wailing, squals unavailing
Sailers pray for their lives
Heaven disrupted, like the buses
Passengers hoping to hitch a ride
People swept off their feet, they are all dead meat
The Church no sanctuary now
So many voices, not enough choices
The future's so very dim now.

But there's a better place, let's all head there
No home left down here
Heaven, here we come, don't allow no bums
The sun still shines upon god's hair
But those butterflies, long buried in the mud
Sill only live down here
Future hope is the human motto
Existance in God's creation Forever

Kisses, stream, flying name
Beautiful sky, now it's falling
Beauty whiped your nature
Higher, free, like Heaven
Horses pray, disrupted hope
People's sanctuary, voices dim
But no Heaven shines
Butterflies here ... hope ... Forever

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Life (15/11/01)
*written on completion of year 12 and though I'm Australian, it kinda has an American ring to it.. what can I say, I watch too much American TV*

13 years of school days past
Many years yet years don't last
All those faces, words forgotten
Classes, teachers lessons alotted

Freedom, now to do those things
Months await for lives released
Plans are made, our future awaits
All with free smiles, no constraints

Reminice the past, look to the future
Forget the past, move onto the future
Let's do our thing, our lives await
Graduation, our lives await

Have a drink, party on the beach
Go to a party, no teachers who preach
Shake your thing, throw your books out the window
Have a drinking binge, learn to slur our lingo

13 years of school days past
Many years yet years don't last
All those faces, words forgotten
Classes, teachers lessons alotted

No more maths, no more science
Forget those things and get your licence
No more uniforms, burn those dresses
Forget duty rosters, no worrying about messes

Reminice the past, look to the future
Forget the past, move onto the future
Let's do our thing, our lives await
Graduation, our lives await

We have our freedom, no more bells
We own ourselves, no form assembley
We can do our thing, no conforming rules
We decide our lives, no nudging by teachers

13 years of school days past
Many years yet years don't last
All those faces, words forgotten
Classes, teachers lessons alotted

No-one will, now, tell us what to do
We'll do what we want, you're agreeing, now, too
It's a scary thought, what will come next
Previously directed, now, no refering to a text

Reminice the past, look to the future
Forget the past, move onto the future
Let's do our thing, our lives await
Graduation, our lives await

What's our future, what do we now do
We've done the time, what do we now do
We had direction, we asked for freedom
We've got that freedom, give us some direction

13 years of school days past
Many years yet years don't last
All those faces, words forgotten
Classes, teachers lessons alotted

Reminice the past, look to the future
Forget the past, move onto the future
Let's do our thing, our lives await
Graduation, our lives await

Goodbye for now, our future awaits
Goodbye for now, there's no constraints
Goodbye for now, we love you all
Hopefully, we'll see some of you next fall

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Dreaming Life (24/1/02)

Open up your eyes, so wide now
Please don't choose to hide from me now
A beautiful dream, so full, so sweet now
Please don't make me wake from sleep now

One day soon I'll fall asleep again
See your face, I'll start to dream again
Live another life with you again
Be so happy with you and me again

But we know that I will wake tomorrow
Be away from you, once more, tomorrow
I'll wish again for you and me, tomorrow
Hope that one day soon I'll see you, tomorrow

Foolish dreams I'll start to sleep so soon
I'll choose to try and see you once more so soon
To force myself to live that life so soon
Once more it will be just you and me so soon

Drift up through the clouds once more
I'll talk to you and you'll talk to me once more
It will be so sweet to dream once more
Won't we love again in sleep once more

What do you mean, I cannot leave ?
You think it a lie, you want me to die ?
We're too often apart, I'm breaking you heart ?
Not to be alive, to take a dive .

I climb the steps up, up the building
At the top I look down from the building
I see your face so close off the building
Always together when I leave the building

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Apocolypse (9/2/02 touched up: 10/2)

I'm counting down the days
And now I need to pray
The world it's falling down
And now I start to drown

But please don't make me beg
Someone just lost a leg
The buildings fall around me now
And architects start to row

For how many days will this go on
The cities are mostly gone
But leaders still stand their ground
A meeting place they've found

The whispers are getting gradually loud
My ears they hear a sound
The dust and rubble shift again
As wounds they start to mend

Please don't make me leave this place
I've learnt to love this space
But mostly it's the dark I love
Broken only by a fluttering above

My sanity seeps down through the cracks
I finally start to relax
The warmth is flowing through my bones
I feel no longer alone

The millions of us float upwards now
As the gates in the clouds allow
Most of us entry into the new world
The Earth has been finally unfirled

The pitter, patter of the many feet
Creating a heavenly beat
The hum and strum of many voices
Look at the result of our choices

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One Two Three (9/2/01 Touched up: 10/2)

One if ya wanna
Two if ya gonna
Three if ya choose to be free, free, free, free

One is so lonely
Two is so homely
Three won't allow you to be free like me

The choices you make about your life
Confide you to a world . filled with lies
A dream once dreamt will tell you that
A life without numbers will not be led

One is so simple
Two starts to crinkle
Three and you'll start to be free, free, free, free

If you choose one day to live your life
Filled with dreams that won't be changed
You might wake up with nothing left
Or a life that's filled with no regrets

Bridge:
Soon, your life will be so free
Soon, the world will allow you to be free
One day soon you'll have your wish
One day soon you'll live your dreams

Bounce around the world today
Spread some joy and don't hesitate
Send out some love and it'll boomerang
Exponential happiness living this way

One if ya wanna
Two if ya gonna
Three if ya choose to be free, free, free, free

One is so lonely
Two is so homely
Three won't allow you to be free like me

One is so simple
Two starts to crinkle
Three and you'll start to be free, free, free, free

One, you need a plan
Two, you need a dream
{Three, add one and two together and you'll be
Living just like me}
Add them both together to get three
... you're free

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Remember Me (08/03/02) - 7pm

If you live without me, please
Stay away and give me peace
I'll suvive my life with just a memory
Though life will now be far from heavenly

My life with you was short and sweet
A time that had memories way too petit
Though thoughts of you will remain with me
A past shared joke still fills me with glee

So stay away I'll suffer in silence
You'll move to stay afar in high lands
We'll still have dreams in which to kiss
Though awake it will always be you I miss

Kiss me now and hold me tight
Forget those words, turn off my light
I cannot bare to stay away
And I know that nothing will keep you at bay

So come with me, we'll find a way
A forbidden love, choose to stay
I'll love you always in every life
We'll live with our love and ignore the strife

Come with me on this journey we've made
Stay close to me you know you'll get ...
I'll love you always, I'll love you now
Those who frown on our love, they'll have to allow

A kiss so sweet will last enternal
The love from others, compared - paternal
A return to life I'll love so much
This love we have will survive the crunch

So here we are, we'll be together
This love we have will never be severed
The heavens above will have to agree
They know that from eachother we will never flee

My love, you're in my heart
This love, not really so smart
My heart, cannot be changed
We will, always be close range.

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Some Sweet Thoughts (8/3/02) - 7:15pm

Someone has just wrote another song
with words that don't quite seem to belong
the words they don't make a bit of sense
but hey, who cares they seem to mesh

If you don't like it, then go away
listen to a different one another day
the tune is humble, but the words will rhyme
to write a song is far from a crime

Listen so closely and you'll turn from me
the words are not put so eleglantly
the beat is slow no dancing for you
so sit back, relax and remove those shoes

Yes words I write no sence they make
you'll float away to a rippling lake
an idea, and image in imagine in time
a drifting of energy our thoughts will align

If they don't they you don't understand
imagine your own words, create your own land
a beatiful tree, a flower you make bloom
the others, you know, are sure to swoon

Don't take my word move into fresh air
natural smells of the sun in your hair
a bird will sing and flowers will smell
ignore that slug within it's brown shell

Breathe in the air, feel the wind on your skin
I think you finally are starting to begin
a thought you create, follow it now
a peace in yourself time to say chow

Remember advice, move with the wind
ignore the cars create a grin
a soothing feeling, a warmth within
goodbye, goodluck, float in that wind

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Identify (9/3/02) - 4pm

Stop. Identify with me
Reach out with your mind and you will see
These thoughts I have behind a wall
They were made by me, to you I call

Alive I feel with you inside my head
But away you move, too soon, I dread
Then a whisper I hear and all is well
I see it is you and my heart will swell

A floating sensation, I feel your lust
Or is that just me? I turn to dust
Where you are, you see a cloud
"The sky, so blue," you utter aloud

You're standing, head up, awe upon your face
I drop my hankerchief, filled with lace
You turn your head, follow the graceful fall
A hand sweeps it up from the ground of the mall

You acknowledge my smile with one of your own
Then you turn, you walk and I'm all alone
You mind is gone as I watch your back
There's nothing left and all is black

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Stars Inside 12/3/02 - 11:15pm

Stretching up, to the stars
Pull them down and you'll see yourself
Expanse of things hidden from sight
Layers of beauty waiting to be found

Stretching down, into the Earth
You'll find and pull you're hidden thoughts
Dark yet full of life and things between
Some won't like it yet we need it to be

Stretching accross, you'll find a soul
A friend to hold and someone who'll mirror you
Support with the dark stuff, share the light
You'll see, just slightly, a mirror in them

Stretching further is a stranger to you
They might not know you but what do you see?
Assumptions you make help to explain yourself
Reflections again to show you inner mind

Stretching your mind may not be easy to do
But the ups out weigh the downs and you shall learn
We are strange creatures, we have strange heads
All different thoughts and different personalities

Hear the minds of others
See the love they have
Question the world around you
And you shall have stretched

Stretch up, Stretch down,
Stretch accross, Strech further
A Strech that is further
Is your final Stretch of life

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It All (16/3/02) - 11pm

Each to their own is something well known
but not something I own
What goes around comes around is not so smart
seeing as it all comes from the heart
To each their own could equal a raceist
does this allow freedom?
And does what comes around goes around
work the same as Karma?

Views of the world are for everyone unique
So many people with each their own clique
Someone depressed could act out anger
And end up without help, in the clanger

A beautiful mind could end up as waste
As someone walks by too quickly, with haste
Is not a turned head as bad as pulling the trigger
Their Karma the same as the new grave digger?

A politition stands up, wags their finger
They shake their head, but nothing they do
People scream at fur covered models earning their keep
But humans need iron from red meat to eat
An eye for an eye is what the bible might say
But that second eye - who keeps the enforcer at bay
We all have money and shed tears for the poor
Yet later we still have money, the poor still need more

I look around, forward to something ahead
At people with televisions right next to their bed
Shows replace books and classics now movies
People with junk food, fast cars, mobiles, cancer

A child enters the world with innocence
They take their first steps, into the church for penence
{view the skies moon's cresents}
They open their first book - are told what's on TV
They eat and eat - gluttony - now their greedy

We say we are civilised, what is civilisation?
Order, laws, command, justice, government
We say we are advanced, where is this advancement?
Computers, CDs, penecilin, atomic bombs?
We say this is a great world, what's so great?
Cities, love, zoos, ozone holes, disappearing forests?
We say we are happy, but who are we?
Upper class, middle, or the lower, poor, naive?

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Train of life (21/4/02, 25/4/02, 5/5/02)

I take another bite and soon am full
The emotions, they fill me and I feel so cruel
The words I speak are daggers so deep
I say the truth and I'm assumed a creep

A dagger I throw, it cuts so deep
The step I took, it was a leap
The path I went down, was not straight
A crooked way, for life I'm late

A way I use is tread so well
To signify this to others, I ring a bell
Made clear, you know now, stay away
I love life such, a game to play

I hurt who I like, I love like I hurt
This life so similar to the trodden dirt
Confused, I'm made, corresponding to life
Which way at crossroads, I'm left in strife

My heart now is worn, is left to dry
I've hurt, I've loved, I now will cry
But they deserved what the got
The pain I delt was to be their lot

So I take a step and choose a path
I choose to deal with my life's aftermath
I turn to those pained, I am sorry
They still look hurt so I now worry

Are these things reversable
Or at least transferable
These lessons learnt will cause you pain
My heart laid out the ideas all main

Look around and think
The effects and results of that drink
Is pain so much worth it
The fire caused that was lit

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Yours (25/4/02)

I'm not the little angel you saw before you
I'm not the littl girl u choose to see in your eyes
I won't listen to the words you spout in front me now
I will not hear u say u love me if u won't accept

I'm not so young
I'm not so free
I choose to stand and choose to see
I don't know why
I don't know when
I just know that u don't see the person I am under here

So u shall go
U shall see
U shall choose to learn and maybe choose the re-al me
I saw your eyes
I saw your lips
I saw your hand and where u thought it would fit on my hips

I'm not this little girl
I'm not this beautiful woman
I'm not a teeny tiny quest for u to win for kicks
I'm not a girl
I'm not a slut
I will choose to stay away and maybe even choose to cut

This is me
This is true
So won't u reallise that you never knew me too
I shall not wait
I shall not last
Soon this will be the last full mast

I'm not the little girl u once saw me accross the room
I'm not an angel u so want me to be for your own
I won't be yours and you must see
Don't say you love me cos this isn't what we're meant to be

This is not true
This is not me
This is not us so hold me tight and please now ki-iss me
Look in my eyes
Tell me what u see
I need to hear these words and enter into this fantasy

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Live a bit (9/5/02)

You wanna know my life
You want it to be nice
Just step out to the world
And see it isn't so

Every step you take is cruel
Every moment lowers it
Just step into my shoes
And tell me it ain't so

The words I say to them
The words they say to me
Just say it has a use
And tell me, just so

I look up into the blue sky
And see a bird that flys so high
I envy it with all it's grace
I want to be it and fly so free

The life I hold it's so constrictive
The path I follow, set in stone
Just tell me now, how to fix it
And say to me not no

But what is this, you challenge me
A life I live that could be worse
The words I hear I interpret them
You're saying that I'm wrong

People lie, decieving me
Choices made to change the flow
The life I led was not so bad
And the rest of it will be just so

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1. (11/5/02)

Flowing in and out of time
I look around I find
The space I had is now gone
And I feel I'm being drawn

A new world built for me
Not strange to see a tree
The sky is still blue
No brown a toxic hue

But where do I fit in
In the sea I still can swim
The ground I see still has grass
And there's no upper, middle class

A tranquil setting it seems
With no more concrete beams
A twisted world it is to you
To me, somewhere it's all still true

A burning house is not allowed
No more malls no more crowd
This place is only for a few
So to this world are you still true?

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2. (11/5/02)

Endless nights with stars above
But I look down, I'm not in love
The sky is made for those so touched
Though it is those who aren't who have time as such

But it isn't our place to look up
We think about the past way too much
Watching all the others with those they love
Hoping that one day soon that will be us

We lie in our lonely beds and dream
Wishing for hot nights. Strawberries and cream
No arm wrapped around, comforting us
Travelling alone on an empty bus

Dreaming of a world where we are two
Where the words of one will answer for two so true
And the birds that fly high into the trees
Are as beautiful as a salty summer breeze

Whispers in the night just for us
"I love you", something heard, we don't just lust
A walk on the beach is made romantic
Not just exercise that is sporadic

So a wish in the wind for some love
A wind carrying more than just a dove
A want for something more that we have
Soon it will come, a whispering love

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Buffy-Spike Relationship Dedication (12/5/02)

This is a love that could never be
One is good, the other has no soul
He thinks he loves her, but his heart is evil
She fills a black void with the death he feeds her

Once in the past she had a lover
Consumating this love he turned to evil
She seemed to accept and grow from this
The lvoe she gave only damaged the world

But death was her gift and it was taken from her
From Heaven she was torn and all went bad
She turned to the olny one who could understand
A dead soul who loved her and understood the blackness

Her friends shall find out and they won't accept it
The line she's crossed, though they crossed it first
Two creatures who weren't allowed to Rest In Peace
Comfort in eachother from the evils they face

A world that's abandoned them
A love that doesn't fit
A hope for something more
But this match won't last

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