When the rain falls upon my head
I'll look up and wish myself dead
Close my eyes, begin to cry
Waiting now, oh please let me die

The hope I've held for something more
It's lost so now please, to you I implore
Let me go, let me leave, let me walk the plank
The reason for life, the answer ... I draw a blank

Love hasn't found me, hasn't knocked my door
I've waited, through pain, then I've waited some more
I'll wait no longer so I'm packing my things
It is time to see what any afterlife brings

I'll run, I'll walk, I'll hop, I'll fall
Just let me leave, Death answer my call
I want to go, and I want to go now
I'll leave, not turn back, and that is that

Catastrophic tidings turn the world
But love and hope engulfs them
We walk with weights tieing us down
But happiness and strong will lifts us

We all keep on walking alone
Down the unlit street of life
But others pass us by
And they give us guidence for our journey

We all carry shame, we all tell lies
Though we forget we're not the only ones
We feel shame, we feel despair
Though we're all human, we all feel

So keep on walking, touch others' lives
Remember lies we heard, feel others' pain
Walk high and help others carry their load
If we bind together, how could we ever be alone?

It was a garden of love that showed you to me,
Flowers so full of life, grass swishing like your hair
Mounds of dirty soil, hidden from view
But the life on top, like my love it grew

And the world around, of you it reminded me
So many things beautiful, stretched like a tree
Like all these things, all I wanna do
Is hold you in my arms, as I used to do with Dru

Little, little angel, little little peach
Little little sweetheart; to you I preach
I wonder if you know
I wonder if you see
I wonder if you think
What you mean to me
Little little angel; little little peach
Little little sweetheart; for you I reach

I love you in all your forms
I love you in all your thoughts
I love you in your hesitations
I love you till I scream

Hate you. Love you. Cry to you. Drink you up
Want you. Need you. Beg for you. Waiting is up
Come to you. Take to you. Scream for you. Be with you
Want you. Forever. Be yours. Forever

Dancing in the light, I see you there
You twist, your turn, it circles you
The light you see, the world above
To take you down and down you ground

But float above, we will together
Entwined in love, the light is lost
The darkness comes, we are together
The world is ours, it's ours to take

We'll live and love and laugh together
We'll be and see and want one another
One day will end be us together
We will remain in the night, in the light.

The soothing sound of the rain outside
Falls harder, HARDER into my head
The warmth I feel from the fire in front of me
Is frozen, FROZEN by the time it reaches me

Winter is here, winter has come
The ground is hard, the cupboards are bare
The sounds we hear, the sounds from outside
There is a steady thruming, a pitter, patter, ROAR

Why won't it stop, why can't I get warm
The blankets on me are not enough
The rose on the cheeks, the rose on the nose
We're freezing, FREEZING, freezing to death

The sun keeps hiding, the sun is gone
The cloud covers everything, head to toe
We know that soon, we know it's coming
The knock on the door is death for us

One dream is all it takes
To leave this awful place
To float above the cloud so high
To leave it all, just you and I

We'll be together, one day at a time
We'll be forever, and ever entwined
One day we'll look back, back at this
Dreaming of - that very first kiss

The sky was dark, stars ablaze
Early evening, all just a haze
Walking alone, hand in hand
The ocean washing upon the sand

We stopped, the moon, shone down on us
That point in time, it was just lust
But we thought different, the scene was great
His key unlocked the forbidden gate

Wheel kept turning, time moved on
We no longer, felt so young
But love, it formed, took over us
Beauty matching just the one Venus

The clouds are breaking, I fall down
From my head, falls my Prince's crown
Alone, I am, the dream is gone
But there are pleanty of frogs 'round the pond

I want him to ask me out
For us to go on a first date
To have that very first kiss
Feel his hands on my face, hair, neck

I want to look deep into his eyes
See him looking back with the same attraction
Being so near to him
Watch the shaking of his hands reaching for mine

I want to live knowing he feels that same way
To know that the phone ringing is him
To be so close that we read eachother's minds
Gross out non-couples with our kissing in the street

Looking into the glass
I see her staring back at me
Tears are streaming down her face
Eyes scrunched, chin wobbling
I wonder how things could get so bad
That she'd clutch that knife so tight
She pushes the blade against her skin
A drop of blood hits the tiles at her feet
Her hands now at her face
Knife lost to the blood pool below
Clawing nails leaving red bulges
She's so lost and so confused
I want to help her, I want to reach her
But I can't and never will
So close yet I'll never hug her
She's as alone as I am in that room

The weight is in my head
Pulls down like gravity doubled
It's a mass that constantly throbs
A humming, like harmony gone wrong

I know that sleep will rid me of it
But this thing deprives me of sleep
So I'll do stuff that makes it worse
And wait for my eyes to close themselves

I know that any drugs I take won't help
They never seem to work
Still I hope that one day they will
They're as good as a placebo in my head

So I wait for the sleep to take me
I wait for the pain to leave
I'd hope that pain won't visit again
And I'll dream of a head without ache

I'll sit and stare and wonder
If this is all that's left to do
Why do I bother, why do I care?
Why would I keep on sitting here

I'm so bored I want to claw
My skin it itches more and more
I want to scream I want to yell
I need to speak to someone now

I feel like running I want to hide
I don't know where and why
Oh please don't go away again
I'm so bored when you are gone

Sitting here, I stare again
I hope you'll be here soon
Cos I know you'll speak and think
And then we'll have something to do

Keeping to the stars, I'll know the Sun will rise above
Watching as the path, it follows, is our Love
Pushing clouds away, sweeping one more day
Waiting for it all to go quiet, dark above

It will one day spread, be so strong, then be gone
Wanting to retire, with our love, but that is wrong
Happily ever after, be so free like children's laughter
Will not ever happen so the Dead, the Sun they scorn

Watching, waiting, forever and ever
This love between us will never sever
If this is love, if the sun's still above
Then this is something the world can treasure

So be free, so be happy
For love will never lack ye
It will all be understood
When the Sun sets for good

Deaths taps on my window
Death taps on my door
He's asking for entry
To me he does implore
See, I'm torn, see, I'm anguished
Is this wrong, this metal sandwich
My skin is marked and it is red
Showing how, my head is messed
The skull is bare and it is grinning
His horrid fingers are a'singing
It knows what I'm thinking
Into darkness I am sinking
I hear him tapping, I hear him rattling
As he hovers on the edge
He'll move aside, show a path
There is an arrow to that ledge
So I creep, oh-so quiet
I will tip-toe to that ledge
Pausing only for a moment
Then I'll jump and know I'm dead

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Then darkness will fall..
You will be alone and the darkness spreads
Under your skin and under your nails
Alone you will be with a deep seeded dread

But don't be afraid, little girl.
I'll watch over you with a lustful eye
I'll watch real close, and I'll watch with love
And one time soon you will be mine

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The evil inside you will one day grow
Spread to your outside and then you'll know
What it really is to be ugly and crude
With every day of your life a horrible black Mood

You look at the Sun and it is grey
You stare at your love and will be afraid
The love is dark, it's no longer there
Never will you, for another still care

You'll open a gift, full of colour and love
Yet the greys will invade and remove it's grace
You'll see in the sky many beautiful dove
But your mind will block them, the sky, no more trace

So delete that hate you feel for me
Forget that table that hurt your knee
Look up at the sky, feel the warmth of the Sun
Let the hate you've done be slowly undone

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Hate it all, love it all
either way, you've got what you've got
Choose to see, choose not to see
whatever you choose, it will still be there
Catch a life, catch a trip
ride with it and to Hell with what's Hip
Find a love, settle down
build a home in a warm winter town
Seal it up, close the deal
know that to come will be your next meal
And relax it all, live in bliss
End out years on a soft, subtle kiss

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Caged Animal (05/07/03)

Caged animal stares at me
Wants to be released, wants to be free
To roam the jungle, feel the jungle floor
To no longer want something more

The cage is cold, the cage is bare
From where it came, it knows not where
It stares at me and wants to know
Why, in this place, do the trees not grow?

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This candle here, this candle bright
I bless this star that rose at night
To bring me love, to bring a mate
Signalled with a sun rise late

Welcomed soul, welcomed son
I never wish to you be undone
But give me light and give me breath
To never see your bed of death

I ask for peace, I ask for light
To keep me happy when it is night
And when the sun is up right here
Allow my friends to reach my ear

Forget the hate, forget the rage
Give them peace and burning sage
And whenthe stick has burnt right down
Remove the memory of their hell-felt frown

Bless my love and bless my life
The apple I peel with this knife
I eat it all and as it fills me
My happy emotions allowed, flow free

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Flowing souls, dancing free
Open their minds and let them flee
Free from the pain and free from the hurt
Around the hole in their heart, let them skirt

Governing tides, the moon will be full
It will smile down and make you a mule
You'll walk that mule and ppl will stare
Say, "From where in the hell did that get there??"

Counting crows is a fun thing to do
Even funnier when they start to go "Moo"
You jump around and they fly off
And the ppl watch and stare and at you they scoff

Everyone wants to smile at you
They know you won't be untrue
You are so pure, and your heart is gold
And happiness in life, for you will unfold

You're loved by all and all want to
You're love for the world, like you, it grew
And love in the world will happen to you
When you meet that one special, happiness for you

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Licia's Poem (15/07/03)

Candle light around your face
Shows your beauty just like lace
Allows the truth to be shown
Makes so simple, this written poem

Wanting you to be so happy
Knows you'll hate this poem sappy
But who cares, it's happiness for you
Tells what I think of you is true

Smile, Alicia, the morning will come
And throw away the devil's drum
The Sun will give you a new look at all
No more darkness into it you won't fall

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