© 2002 by Sarah Ryniker JudgmentalMama@hotmail.com http://www.oocities.org/iamthealmightyrah/FF.html
STORY LAST UPDATED ON 20/06/2002
Burn of Death Prologue Chapter One Chapter Two Chapter Three Chapter Four Chapter Five Chapter Six Chapter Seven Chapter Eight Epilogue
PROLOGUE
I hated the way my life seemed so perfect. The way I had the perfect mother, perfect sister, the absolutely perfect stepfather. Mama hadn't had any other kids, but she still could. I felt bad for not wanting any other brothers or sisters. But how could I want them? The family only seemed perfect. But I found it dangerous to be in it. After all, my mother thinks her judge of character is strong, but if it had been, we wouldn't have got into the predicament we had been in when I was twelve.
I love my family. Don't get me wrong; Mama is a good judge of character. But I guess she was lonely after my father's death. I guess that would make her a bad judge of character. I'm just confused about it. I can't help feeling that my mother, inadvertently, ruined my life. I don't feel normal. I feel like I am still broken, still shattered. He ruined me in ways that I would never heal from.
It isn't Mama's fault I feel the way I do. She doesn't even know what and how I feel. I fear that if I tell her, it'll kill her. Mama is a strong, beautiful woman, but I think my feelings really could take her down. She's already been through enough, though she refuses to talk about all of it. I think it's too painful for her.
Maybe I am selfish. Maybe the reason for my feelings is because I am heartless. I feel that is so. If I wasn't, I could be more understanding towards Mama. She doesn't mean any harm. She never lies. She never does anything wrong. But that's why she is so damn perfect.
Burn of Death Prologue Chapter One Chapter Two Chapter Three Chapter Four Chapter Five Chapter Six Chapter Seven Chapter Eight Epilogue