My God or Your God

 "It's God's will, and it was meant to be."

 This is what some people say to me.

 Do they really believe this, of our Father above?

 That he himself can be so cruel,

 When he himself is love?

 Think about it people, 

Think of what you say.

 My God loves me,

 He would never hurt me this way.

 He did not plan it,

 It is not his will.

 It's because we are human,

 That we fall ill.

 You need to justify things,

 Find a reason why bad things happen,

 So you credit your God.

 You say it is his retaliation.

 But my God is caring,

 Suffering was not part of his plan.

 You say that your God planned it,

 Does he enjoy the pain of man?

 My God is a loving God,

 A Father to us all.

 He did not want our life to be like this,

 Mankind did cause the fall.

 Can you accept that bad things happen,

 With no rhyme, nor reason, or plan?

 Cause I've got a question for you,

 Answer it if you can.

 Your God or my God,

Only one does exist.

 Which one would you choose,

 For your eternal bliss?

 ---Sharon Sweeney

Ask My Mum How Is She

 My Mum, she tells a lot of lies
 She never did before.
 From now until the day she dies.
 She'll tell a whole lot more.

 She used to tell the truth, a lot
 But now it doesn't matter.
 I died and went to heaven,
 Her life is all a-shatter.

 Ask my Mum how is she.
 She'll say, "Yes, I'm fine!"
 She wants to beg "Please help me.
I can't find that boy of mine!"

 Ask my Mum, how is she,
 She'll say, "I'm alright."
 If that's the truth then tell me,
 Why does she cry each night?

 Ask my Mum, how is she,
 She seems to cope so well.
 She didn't have a choice, you see,
 Nor the strength to yell.

 You think you know the feeling,
 But this cannot be.
 For even though you loved me,
 You didn't love as much as she.

She will smile and tell you,
 "It's o.k. God has a plan."
 But she will turn away and cry
 'Cause she just can't understand.

 Tell a joke and she will laugh,
 But she is not o.k.
 She wants to share the joke with me,
 But it will not be today.

 I watch from here, in Heaven.
 Her distress disturbs my peace.
 Will someone please take care of her,
 And thus take care of me?

 "Some day you will feel better."
 "Yes I will." she lies.
 She knows this will not happen,
 Until the day she dies.

 "I was so lucky!
 I had him all those years!"
 (They passed in a minute,
 I shed so many tears.)

 Ask my Mum how is she,
 She'll say, "Thank you. Good."
 She cannot tell you how she feels.
 Oh, how I wish she could.

 Ask my Mum how is she,
 "I'm fine, I'm well, I'm coping."
 For God's sake, Mum, just tell the truth
 Just say your heart is broken.

 Ask my Mum how is she,
 "I'm well, I'm good. And you?"
 I'll shake my head in Heaven.
 It simply isn't true.

 She'll love me all her life.
 I loved her all of mine.
 But if you ask how is she,
 She'll lie and say she's fine.

 Her carnival is over.
 She's stepped off the carousel.
 But, to save you feeling badly,
 She'll say, "Thanks, all is well."

 My Mum, she's not gone mad, yet.
 But, oh so very nearly.
 Don't ask my Mum how is she,
Ask how is she, really.

 I am here in Heaven.
 I cannot hug from here.
 If she lies to you, don't listen.
 Hug her, hold her near.

 On the day we meet again,
 We'll smile and I'll be bold.
 I'll say, "You're lucky to get in here, Mum,
 With all the lies you told!"

 Written by Jo Burr
 3 months after losing her 15yr old son, Simon

I will see you through

I know it was not easy,
for you to let her go,
but love like yours would not hold back,
your love to suffer so.
And so I took her quickly,
so she would never know,
a lengthy time of darkness,
that would distress her so.
I left her body here awhile,
so you could have some time,
to be prepared to let her go,
she was already Mine.
I bid her come while happy,
with joyous plans ahead,
and laughter in her face and heart,
and not one thought of dread.
You have the most to suffer,
your loneliness to bear,
but know that she is safe with Me,
within My loving care.
And never doubt My love for you,
I know you wonder why,
just know My strength will be your joy,
My love will never die.
I bore my son's own suffering,
and I will bear yours too,
give me your doubts and pain and hurt
and I will see you through.

~Author unknown





Angel in Heaven

There's a special Angel in Heaven
that is a part of me.
It is not where I wanted her
but where God wanted her to be.

She was here but just a moment
like a nightime shooting star.
And though she is in Heaven
she isn't very far.

She touched the heart of many
like only an Angel can do.
We held her every minute
for the end we all knew.

So I send this special message
to the Heaven up above.
Please take care of my Angel
and send her all my love.

Author unknown





The mention of my child's name may bring
tears to my eyes,
but it never fails to bring
music to my ears.
If you are really my friend,
let me hear the beautiful
music of her name.
It soothes my broken heart
and sings to my soul.


Author Unknown





May I Go Now?


Do you think that the time is right?

May I say good-bye to pain-filled days
and endless lonely nights?

I've lived my life and done my best,

an example tried to be

So, can I take that step beyond

and set my spirit free?

I didn't want to go at first.

I fought with all my might.

But something seems to draw me now

to a warm and loving Light.

I want to go.

I really do.

It's difficult to stay.

But I will try as best I can

to live just one more day.

To give you time to care for me

and share your love and fears.

I know you're sad and are afraid

because I see your tears.

I'll not be far--I promise that;

and hope you'll always know

that my spirit will be close to you,

wherever you may go.

Thank you so for loving me.

You know I love you too,

that's why it's hard to say good-bye

and end this life with you.

So hold me now just one more time

and let me hear you say,

because you care so much for me,

you'll let me go today.


Author unknown





I AM HEALING

My friends, be patient with me,
For I have suffered a grievous wound
and I know not whether to live or die.
Do not judge me weak
for if you, too, were felled
by these wounds you most
likely could not, yourself, prevail.

Know that I am striving to rise again,
and yet my scrambling feet
find little purchase
on this steep slope of despair
Think well of me,
and do not scrutinize the patterns of my steps.
I seek now merely to stand upright
and cannot yet, perform the dance you do.

Still, I go on and one day soon
I may feel again the rhythm
that you move to.
And on that day
do you clasp my eager hands and join me in the joyful dance of life.

~ AUTHOR UNKNOWN ~





"The Elephant in the Room"

There's an elephant in the room.
It is large and squatting, so it is hard to get around it.
Yet, we squeeze by with, "How are you?" and "I'm fine"....
And a thousand other forms of trivial chatter.
We talk about the weather.
We talk about work.
We talk about everything -- except the elephant in the room.
We all know it is there.
We are thinking about the elephant as we talk.
It is constantly on our minds,
For you see, it is a very big elephant.
But we do not talk about the elephant in the room.
Oh, please, say her name.
Oh, please, say "Grace" again.
Oh, please, let's talk about the elephant in the room.
For if we talk about her death,
Perhaps we can talk about her life.
Can I say "Grace" and not have you look away?
For if I cannot, you are leaving me
Alone... in a room... With an elephant.

by terry Kettering created using the name Barbara





Mummy

It's me, your little Angel
Just checking in with you.
I know you're sad
because I'm gone,
and Mummy I'm sad too.

It's beautiful here,
wherever I am,
there's such a lovely view.
But mostly when I'm sitting here
I'm looking down at you

I see all your feelings,
everyday when I look down,
I love to see you smile
and I know sometimes you frown

But guess what?
I have a job to do.
God saved it for your little girl.
I get to watch over you
and protect you from the world.

So though you cannot see me
and I know it's hard on you,
You'll surely see the benefits
of the job God has me do.

~Author unknown





I'M EVERYPLACE


Mom don't mourn for me
I'm still here, though you don't see
I'm right by your side each night and day
And within your heart I long to stay

My body is gone but I'm always near
I'm everything you feel, see or hear
My spirit is free, but I'll never depart
As long as you keep me alive in your heart

I'll never wander out of your sight
I'm the brightest star on a summer night
I'll never be beyond your reach
I'm the warm moist sand when you're at the beach

I'm the colourful leaves when fall comes around
And the pure white snow that blankets the ground
I'm the beautiful flowers of which you're so fond
The clear cool water in a quiet pond

I'm the first bright blossom you'll see in spring
The first warm raindrop that April will bring
I'm the first ray of light when the sun starts to shine
And you'll see that the face in the moon is mine

When you start thinking there's no one to love you
You can talk to me through the Lord above you
I'll whisper my answer through the leaves on the trees
And you'll feel my presence in the soft summer breeze

I'm the hot salty tears that flow when you weep
And the beautiful dreams that come while you sleep
I'm the smile you see on a baby's face
Just look for me, mom, I'm everyplace...

Author unknown





Best Angel Friends

A beautiful little angel showed up to Heaven's gates Confused and unknowing the plan that for him awaits. Then another little angel walked up and took his hand and said, "Please don't be sad you left, you're in the Promised Land." "I'm glad to be here but I do not think I was to go, Perhaps there was a mistake, for my mommy wanted me so." The little greeting angel gave a sweet smile and said, "My mommy wanted me too, but to Heaven I was led. You see, we do not get to choose when on Earth it's time to go. He gave us life, love and joy and a mother's womb to grow. The Lord still needs new angels to guide them down on earth. To watch over, comfort them, and help them see their worth." "Is there still a way that I can sleep in my mommy's bed?" The greeting angel grinned and said, "that luxury you'll keep. I visit my mommy nightly and softly sing her to sleep." The little angel replied, "then I think I'll like it here. I'll visit my mommy nightly and weaken her pain and fears. I love her and will keep her safe at night and in between, And let her know with a sweet memory that she is still with me." The greeting angel gave her new friend a big hug and said, "Until our mommy's meet us here, let's be best angel friends." "Okay," said the new angel, "that sounds good to me." Then the angels sat and played keeping their mommy's in sight, Humming the tunes to the song they would sing to their mommy's tonight...


--Anonymous





"When Tomorrow Starts Without Me"

When tomorrow starts without me
And I'm not there to see;
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
All filled with tears for me.

I wish so much you wouldn't cry
The way you did today;
While thinking of the many things
We didn't get to say.

I know how much you love me ...
As much as I love you;
And each time that you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too.

But when tomorrow starts without me
Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name
And took me by the hand.

She said my place was ready
In heaven far above;
And that I'd have to leave behind,
All those I dearly love.

But as I turned to walk away,
A tear fell from my eye;
For all my life, I'd always thought
I was to young to die.

I had so much to live for,
So much yet to do;
It seemed almost impossible,
That I was leaving you.

I thought of all the yesterdays,
The good ones and the bad;
I thought of all the love we shared,
And all the fun we had.

If I could relive yesterday
Just even for awhile,
I'd say goodbye and kiss you
And maybe see you smile.

But then I fully realized
That this could never be;
For emptiness and memories
Would take the place of me.

And when I thought of worldly things
I might miss come tomorrow;
I thought of you, and when I did,
My heart was filled with sorrow.

But when I walked through heaven's gates
I felt so much at home;
When God looked down and smiled at me
From His great golden throne.

He said, "This is eternity
And all I've promised you;
Today your life on earth is past,
But here it all starts anew."

"I promise no tomorrow,
But today will always last;
And since each day's the same day,
There's no longing for the past."

"But you have been so faithful,
So trusting and so true;
Though at times you did do things,
You knew you shouldn't do."

"But you have been forgiven
And now at last you're free;
So won't you take my hand
And share my life with me?"

So when tomorrow starts without me,
Don't think we're far apart ...
For every time you think of me,
I'm right here ... in your heart.





Why God takes the little ones
I swear I'll never know
You had so much life to live
It just wasn't time to go.

For comfort, now, I think of you
With tiny little wings
Up above, in a beautiful place,
listening to angels sing.

You'll never know the pain I feel
The hurt you left behind.
Oh, what I wouldn't give to hold you one more time.

I carried you in my womb,
Then I carried you in my arms
And now, until it no longer beats
I'll carry you in my heart

~Author unknown~





Sadly Hollow
Prayer of the Makah Indians

Do not stand by my grave and weep.
I am not there...I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am a diamond glint on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awake in the morning hush,
I am the swift uplifting rush,
Of quiet birds in circling flight.
I am the soft star shine at night
Do not stand by my grave and cry..
I am not there...I did not die.





A child is now at rest
For a safer place she remains
A world of goodness and beauty
A world without worry or pain
No fear will she encounter
For a better place she'll be
A place where the sick are healed
And where blind eyes can see
Our world has forever changed
Our lives are not the same
But close within our hearts
Her precious face remains
We give to her our tears
And our prayers we send above
We cherish all the memories
Filled with happiness and love
She'll have someone to depend on
A helping hand is there to lend
For the Father shall be watching
And in Heaven, she'll have a friend
This battle is faced head on
Many obstacles to overcome
But in the end together,
this battle will be won.

Is It Really Time To Move On?
 

Why oh why must you say
Things that hurt me in such a way
That my grieving here on earth is done
Have you no respect for a grieving mom?
 

Do you not know what those words do to me
How often you tell me "Please just let him be"
How that puts a hole deep inside my heart
Telling me to move on give your life a fresh start
 

Do you expect me to forget my little one?
My baby boy who is my precious and only son
How could you do this to a grieving mom
Telling her that her child is now gone
 

Every time you say those words I hate to hear
It brings all that pain back with many tears
I can not forget what has happened that day
Those are memories that will never go away
 

He will always hold a special spot in my heart
And that will never ever depart
I love my son so much you see
And it hurts when you tell me to let him be
 

He holds a spot close to my heart
And we are never far apart
I am a grieving mom
Whose heart is now gone
 

My son is my world to me
And I will not let him be
I need you to just understand
And come and take my hand
 

Just come and be by my side
And if I need just let me cry
I will someday be ok
But don't tell me to put my son away
 

I ask that you say a prayer for me
I have a son who I can not see
My heart holds much pain
For my son who I will one day see again
 

So please just be by my side
Let me grieve for my child who has died
I will be ok someday
But for now that pain is here to stay
 

written April 19, 2001

Beth Richard
In memory of my son Brandon ~bornstill June 26, 1998~

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