Your thoughts didn't end with simply killing yourself. Every single one of us, at one time or another, has thought about how people would react if you were to die. Every single one of us. I am not just pulling this out of my ass either, I did some research, and it's true, YOU have had that thought. You wondered if that guy or girl would be horribly upset, and that may have made you grin ever so slightly even though you knew that was sick. You thought about how they'd all finally realize how poorly you had been treated, and they'd have a newfound respect for what you did while alive. They'd all cry at your funeral, even the people that barely knew you. You found comfort in the fantasy and it played out in your mind for a little longer than you thought it should have. It has happened to me, and it has happened to you. That guy sitting next to you on the bus and the girl looking over the cash register towards you thought that way too. As painful as it may be, you're not special in that respect. Sorry.

     Every single one of you have wanted to just get self-destructive some night and forget this world. Hell, a lot of you have done it; don't feel bad. How many of you get drunk sometimes, not for the recreational purposes, but because this world takes great pride in kicking you when you're down, and drinking is the fastest way to numb the pain? How about sex? Ever used sex to escape this world? How about to escape that last guy or girl, show yourself just how over them you are? No, of course it didn't work too well, but don't let that get to you, we've all at least tossed around the idea. Some of us just couldn't get laid, think of the depression that brought on.