2005

I had not lived right
This life given me
The wrongs I have done
Leave me trapped in humanity

My cries fall in vain
For sadness is much to shallow
I cannot grasp my words
For my thoughts come and go

Where do I run?
Only to You, my Lord
But I flee when You come
And hide in this world

As Eve fell
So has Adam defied
I return to the old
That I have once denied

Hold my heart
And change me now
And let me return
To my broken vow

Take me from my pit
I am lost than I have ever been
Give ear to my words, O Lord
This flawed heart, only You have seen

The crucible for silver
And the furnace for gold
O Lord you test the heart
Pull me out from the cold

05.31.06

All else fails
Nothing will remain
So much for the tales
Of living life to gain

Do you eat to live, my friend?
Or live to eat instead?
Broken soul, who can mend?
Blind from silver and gold and bread.

Lawless heart, you are your own king
No man is over you
Don’t you feel your broken wings?
Why refuse all that is true?

Darkness can never comprehend
The freedom light bestows
Reality falls when you reach the end
And regret refusing what you know

Time will not wait
Nor will it extend for more
It is for you to decide your fate
Or choose to close the door

03.2005

Through thick and thin,
Though bone and skin;
Blood for brother,
We will not falter;
Break our bones,
Go throw stones;
For God, not for man,
This is where we stand.

10.03.05

The sky is gloomy and gray
Silence… no words to say...
Ironic peace...
Floodgates open, release.

Hiding under the wings
Of wind while Heaven sings.
With booming voice and might
And forks of blinding light.

You can tell it’s a lonely song
When the wind blows not so strong;
And everyone else is by the fire,
Quickly, retreating. To satisfy own desire.

Heaven singing softly, almost a murmur
Faint beat of a heart in suffer.
A brief pause of stillness, come.
Then singing again, light beat of the drum.

Heaven empties, pours it all out,
Ending in one final shout.
Then comes the smile erupting
From the once gloomy gray pouting.

How easily Heaven forgets woe
How easily to forgive, to let go...
Only tears in a songs to heal
Then shall the floodgates close, seal.