Scott Kellam, what can I say…..the BASTARD!!! What an ass

 

 

But I love him, can’t help our weakness’ unfortunately

Not to great on the eye, but to me he was luscious.

He had many good points, he just forgot them

Some I can’t mention in public

 

(have my knees trembling just thinking)

He was a little boy, and anyone reading this that knows him, you could not begin to imagine!!  

Sweet, innocent….HA!!!!!  but he was.

Magic, yes he was

Amazing, Yes he was

Fun, common knowledge

Sensual, I hope no one else ever knows just how much

Touched my heart in a way that no one ever will again

Touched everything in the way no one ever will again!!  Soul, life, mind, eyes, …and everything that gos with me.

Special love is rare, very rare.  Most people settle for what they have, because they know not better, because they want security, because they are lazy…many other reasons.

If you are lucky enough to experience what I hold inside, unconditional and complete, then you have reached the pinnacle of life that few make, there is no higher, no better.

That Scott is tucked away somewhere now, GOD DAMNED everyone everything and God himself to hell who took part in  taking such a life away.

Now he’s so bare he’s ice cold, I just wanted to warm him, remind him who he was, of those Saturdays, of magic, of standing in a movie line, holding hands and kissing between every word like teenagers

But….he wouldn’t let me touch him, fear without a doubt, that every time he did touch me, everything melted away, like an ice shell… I guess he didn’t understand how free that was and how unique that was.

Well asswipe! You and your mates, and other noses who put thoughts in your head can live a just life. People were jealous of us, scoff if you like.. its truth.

I’d rather not be around, having known completeness and wonder.

Nothing else matters after that