When the escapes are all taken
away, when there is no more places to run
and hide, we are left face to face with our
lives and our thought programs as we have
been living them. This is a pinnacle and pivotal
situation of extreme consequence: do we (or
can we) accept and take responsibility for
this life we embody? Or do we continue to
runaway, escape and cover over this unacceptable
self?
We are constantly running. We run away
from what we consider discomforts and we
run towards what we see as comfortable or
pleasurable. Another way to say this would
be that we run towards our hopes and away
from our fears. Our hopes could be something
as simple as and unspoken (or un-thought
of) as eating a bowl of ice cream. We run
towards pleasure and that that sweet taste
will satisfy us for a time.
We then lie, cover, reinterpret, avoid
and justify all of our actions in protection
of this fragile Self and its selfish
pursuits.
All institutions, religions, social norms
and unspoken mores are born out of this
Self preservation.
All that is good and done in the name of
good, all that is bad and done in the name
of bad: comes from Self.
All that is sacred and all that is detested:
comes from Self.
This world, this life that we have created
is a prison and nothing more.
Every hope and every dream, every fear
and every defense further supports and reinforces
the prison walls of Self.
Our parents are both our fellow inmates
and guards of this prison. They, like us,
each have a key to exit this prison, but
do not see this prison as a prison at all;
and therefore do not choose to leave.
Peoples desire for security, comfort
and sense pleasure has become stronger than
their need for balance, happiness and freedom.
We are addicts unto ourselves and cannot
see the horrible consequence of this situation.
We quickly sell our time, our thoughts,
our entire lives for the promise of satisfaction
that runs from us so elusively.
We are slaves programmed that we are not
thin enough, beautiful enough, white enough,
rich enough, caring enough, powerful enough,
full enough and on and on
With the right car we will be happy, with
the right person will be happy, with enough
money we will be satisfied, with the right
toothpaste our white smiles will bring us
all the success we deserve. Then the people
will see how smart we really are, how kind
and generous and happy our lives appear
and then things will be right, and we will
be satisfied.
The foundations of our programmed minds
are natural and inherent in all humans:
sheer desire. But what does desire entail?
More, more, more, protect, more, more, more,
protect, more, more
We are biologically programmed to never
accept enough as truly enough. We are satisfied
only when we are full for the memory of
our empty stomachs is a biological imprint
that keeps the wheels spinning at all costs.
This is extremely important: it is our
True Nature to not be satisfied.
Desire is the fuel of evolution.
Desire is both the creator and the destroyer
of life and life must have both for it to
continue. This is why humans are undoubtably
headed towards destruction of not only their
entire habitat, but of themselves as well.
The overlay of this instinctual desire
is the cultural, societal and familial programming
that runs through all of our minds like
an annoying backseat driver that reminds
you to turn left just as you are signaling
to do so.
We are monkeys taught to go up the coconut
tree, grab the coconut shell and give it
to our masters for a piece of banana. Each
of us is both a monkey and the master, playing
each role in different times and in different
circumstances.
We are slaves to others, we are slaves
to ourselves.
The wheel of rebirth spins through realization,
acceptance and participation.
The more you stop feeding the desire (or
the need for the Self to escape into desires)
the more the program running in your mind
will resemble an addict: reaching, searching,
wanting, never being satisfied.
The target of the desire is unimportant,
Self just wants more. It needs to be fed.
Therefore, your thoughts will begin becoming
extremely nasty and cruel at times. The
reason for this (if there can be a logical
reason for self loathing) is that the injured
person will quickly run back to his or her
escapes, thus feeding the desire and keeping
the process going.
The only way out of this never-ending cycle
that the Buddha called Samsara and the Christ
called Hell is to FIGHT.
FIGHT by letting go of everything that
you have and everything that you do not.
FIGHT by letting go of everything that
you believe in and everything that you do
not.
FIGHT with no weapons, fight with no arms,
fight with no legs.
FIGHT with the moment and the courage to
accept it as it is, for there will never
be another moment like NOW.