people have a difficult time
differentiating their thoughts from the reality
that is set in front of them. this is natural
and is as old as thought itself. we never
quite see the true nature of things clearly,
because most of our experience life in relation
to our thoughts about life.
for instance, many people have a fear of heights.
they know their fear is irrational, but they
cannot overcome or gather the power to face
that fear and erase it from their lives. so
when the person who is afraid of heights comes
to a situation in his or her life where they
have to be in a high place (maybe they are
traveling with some friends and they are at
a veiwpoint), although there is nothing in
that high place that would try to hurt them
or push them off the edge, they somehow get
very scared that some accident might happen
that would send them over the edge to their
death. it's a very real fear, but a very irrational
one. it's just not reality.
another example would be the man who builds
his whole life around his career and his work,
with the idea that his eventual success will
make him happy and secure. this is his thinking,
but in reality, his whole life is spent feeling
insecure about himself, because there are
always people that are more successful, more
rich and more powerful than he his.. and the
happiness he wishes for, plans for and desires,
becomes a distant dream in his thoughts....
a picture of some wonderful tropical island
where all will be satisfied and in balance.
but in reality, life and happiness are much
different than this.
so we all have our individual thoughts and
our individual hopes and fears, but we all
share a common reality. and in order to live
in balance with that common reality, to live
in balance with our neighbors, our friends,
family and lover, we must be very careful
not to confuse our thoughts about this shared
reality, with the reality itself. we cannot
confuse our attachment to the feeling someone
gives us, with that exact person. we cannot
confuse our thoughts and opinions about life
with life itself. Life IS and we ARE, but
our experience of life is not life.... it
is our experience.
So what the hell does blogging have to do
with any of this?
Blogging, and writing in general, is an extremely
healthy way to experience your thoughts and
the feelings and emotions that inspire those
thoughts objectively. It is sometimes very
difficult for the man who is afraid of heights
to think away his fear because he says "I
am afraid" and "I" is the thought.
Many people have thoughts that they know are
destructive to them, but they cannot look
at these thoughts objectively and just dismiss
them as silliness or a natural phenomena of
the human experience. Intead, many people
have the thought "I am afraid" and
that ends everything. They believe their thoughts,
even if they are unhealthy.
So what happens when we write, when we blog?
We write down the thoughts and we can see
them more objectively. We can experience them
outside our minds and see their sometimes
irrational and rational logic. We can see
the emotions and feelings that may have triggered
them at that time. Perhaps we are angry about
something and we choose to write a little
today, but then tomorrow we feel nothing and
when we read what we wrote when we were feeling
anger, we can laugh at the silliness of it
all. But at the time it was all very serious.
Writing is purging, writing is an opening
of the valves and a releasing of the pressure
that thought can sometimes bring with it.
Writing is a experience of the reality of
the moment, but then that moment can be looked
at again to see if it still rings true in
the current moment. Because we humans are
constantly changing emotions and feelings,
which in turn change our thoughts, our hopes,
our fears, our ideas about what is right,
wrong and important, writing can give us the
blessing of objectivity in looking at our
thought processes over time.
If we are very attached to our thoughts and
we follow them and take their hopes and fears
seriously, writing them down and testing them
versus the shared reality we all experience
can be a good way to prove their irrationatlity
in a surprisingly rational way.
Then again, I could be totally wrong and this
could all be a lot of bullshit that I spew
out to make myself feel smart. lol But time
will tell. : )