Our Angels
A Memorial for Our Precious Angels
a forum for parents to share their stories as well as an email exchange
At this time, the Memorial Garden is closed. But, please feel free to contact any of the mothers listed below. Finding someone who shares your similiar type of loss can be very healing. |
There isn't really much to tell. I had a very healthy pregnancy. I gained a little over 35 lbs. and two days before I delivered my son everything was fine at the OB/GYN's office. I delivered my son on a Sunday. I was so excited, even though it was unplanned and I was doing everything on my own, I couldn't wait to see what and who he looked like.
I went into labor at 5:30 a.m. and delivered him at 10:17 p.m. on February 15, 1998. They did an autopsy and nothing came back so the doctor's are unsure of the reason of my son's death. They said it could have been that the baby was in distress or he could have been poisoned by the mecconium. I'll never the know the real reason and that is one of the worst things I have to deal with. I miss him terrible and I can't wait to have more children.
Although the thought of going through that again is unbearable so it will be awhile before I have another child. I am happy to say my family's gene's are very strong he looked exactly like my brother when he was a baby and now my brother's first daughter was born in April of 1999 and she looks just like my son, I would say they could pass for twins. To all of those people who have gone through this or something similar it is a very hard thing to deal with and you will probably never get over it but you must continue living your life. I always think that my son is my guardian angel watching over me.
After years of infertility and wanting a baby so badly, my prayers had been answered. I had four little miracles growing inside of me. Around ten weeks we lost one of our angels. It's tiny little heart just stopped beating. At twenty weeks I was admitted to the hospital in pre-term labor. They started me on magnesium sulfate and thankfully it stopped the contractions. I spent the next four weeks in my hospital bed. I was on complete bedrest.
On the morning of June 2, I went in for an ultrasound. That is when they discovered that two of my sweet babies were dead. My third little girl was still alive, but she had no fluid around her. They took me off of the mag and a few hours later I gave birth to my precious little girls. Madelyn Maree and Morgyn Jayne were stillborn. They suffered from Twin-to-Twin Transfusion. Mya Leigh was taken to the NICU immediately. That was her home for the next 7 1/2 weeks.
When she was six weeks old the doctors found a vegetation on her heart caused from an infection. Just a week later she was in congestive heart failure and I had to make the decision to take her off of the life support. I will never forget her looking up at me as I held her in my arms and told her that I loved her for the very last time. I thank God everyday that he let me know what it was like to carry these precious angels inside me and to be a mom, even if it was for such a short time. I LOVE YOU MY SWEET ANGELS! ^i^ ^I^ ^i^ ^i^
Tyler was stillborn just 3 days after his due date on January 11, 1996. The cause of his death was a cord accident.I remember the doctor saying that if he would have been born just a few days earlier he would have been just fine and would be here today. It broke my heart to loose him. Three years later I can say that it does get easier to deal with but it will never be "all better"."All better" would be having him in my arms right now.He will always be in my thoughts every day and will never be forgotten. He is forever in my heart and loved and missed dearly. Please visit his memorial page at: www.oocities.org/Area51/Dimension/2446 and let me share him with you. His memorial page is currently under construction but will be completed by the end of February 1999. I am proud to say that 11 months after loosing Tyler I had another beautiful little boy born healthy and alive weighing 9lbs.13oz. and 22 inches long.It was a very nervous pregnancy because I feared I'd loose this child too.
I didn't ever relax until I heard him crying in the delivery room. His name is Theodore.I wish healing and peace to all parents who have lost a child. Please e-mail me a kimlotz@yahoo.com I'm always willing to talk and give an understanding ear. Hugs, Kim Lotz
Totally thrilled and totally excited to be expecting another baby, which we just KNEW was another boy, we were devastated when we found out that our son had died in utero. You can read more about this experience at the OUR HEARTS WILL GO ON website at http://www.oocities.org/heartland/flats/1449/index.html Well, as He promises in the scripture, though, "wailing lasts for a night, but JOY comes in the morning." Our Lord is hoilding us up and getting us through this time.
