September 28th for a pre-sentencing hearing. We do not know yet if that means she pled guilty. My dad's case, of course, is still not until October. As for the custody case, that is still with the lawyer, and we are dragging our feet, waiting to see what she does when her criminal case has been resolved. As for my depression, well as time went on, and I had no one to talk to, no one who would help me when I asked, it had only deepenned. And on top of it all, more and more was put on me. Finally, I found someone who would listen, and as my subscribers already know, I was diagnosed with reactive depression. I had never heard of this before. It is a depression that apparently is similar to Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome, but instead of one large event, it is cause by a whole string of unrelenting events. She did not feel I needed drugs, only a little rest and support. She seemed like an ideal candidate for me to talk to, but that would go against the flow of my life. She basically wanted my husband to shoulder most of my burdens, or have me leave him! She refused to acknowledge the fact that he'd been living through much the same stress that I have, and was in need of rest and support almost as badly as I! Two years of court cases and a child with severe behavioural problems was just as wearing on him. Add into that mix the burden of supporting our family, yet not feeling free to find regular work because of all that is happenning in our home, and you have a man almost as damaged as I. No, I will not ask him to take on all my stuff too, as that would kill our marriage as surely as leaving him would. Not to mention, it would also kill the man. And then our daughter's counselor, tried aggressively to make me send our daughter away for weekends or an entire week, to some stranger's care, without my husband's permission! Unreal! These are supposed to be proffessionals, and instead of helping us, they seem bent on tearing our family, and what little bit of good we have left apart. *Sigh* Needless to say I only keep that woman around because she is still useful towards getting us services for *Jody*. I have chosen to name my step-daughter *Jody, so that it will be easier to write, while keeping her real name out of this site. In a way it was nice to get that diagnosis. I was able to use it to help people decide that maybe we really DO need services for Jody. We now have Developmental Clinical Services helping us out, and a pediatrician who is sending her for an MRI, EEG, and many many more tests. He is also inclined to agree that she has FAS, (Fetal Alcohol Syndrome,) and is going to write letters to have her ADHD diagnosis revoked. YAY! In the meantime, Child Care Resources is trying to get us Parent Relief, and in-home care. What a relief that would be. Now as far as my abuse goes, where am I now? Well, I'm at a point where I often think I see my dad or his fiancee/wife. Everybody looks like him to me right now. I am anxious to face him and get it over with. Then I'll stop "seeing" him everywhere. I'm just nervous about the first face to face encounter after all this. What will he do? What will I do? How am I supposed to act? I haven't figured this one out yet. The problem will just keep running in the background of my mind until I've figured it all out. Once I come up with a plan, I am fine. But there is nothing in my experience that equips me for this situation. *Sigh* Oh well. It'll all work out in the end. I have resolved to try to put in an update every month, so that I don't end up with these huge catch-up novels. Well, I must be off now to do some more work on the site(s), and get my next newsletter together. (((((((Hugs)))))))))))
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