Journal
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August 24, 1999

         Today I just learned why Nadia wasn't talking to me. My friend told me that Nadia was afraid that I would ruin her reputation. Nat stopped being friends with me because of the same reason, I've betrayed my-self and I know it but I can't seem to change, It's like cigarettes; I can stop for a while but then I start over again. Why is it so hard to change?