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Tuesday, March 30, 2004
hehe...2 classes and a 3-period lunch - now that's the life=) hehe...I didn't have French or physics today, cuz both teachers had to go to some sort of meeting. So, I had some extra time to study for my period 5 chem test - which was really confusing...but meh, what's done is done.
Anyhooey, Fify sent me a site with a personality test, and since I don't have much work left to do, I did spent some time answering it. So, if you have nothing better to do, just click on the link. Fify's a "protector" and I ended up being classified as a "healer".
Anyhoo, I'm gonna go finish up some French homework and then go "chill"=P hehe...have a great nite, everybody!
Singing in the rain,
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Monday, March 29, 2004
Yes...it's late (or "early" rather, depending how you look at it)...that cappucino's keeping me up=P
But, yes...you've probably all heard about Cecilia Zhang. I first found out that she was dead when I read all your MSN names with "r.i.p. Cecilia Zhang"...and then I watched the whole segment of City TV's 11 o'clock news (for the first time in my life) to find out that they found her not too far from home - a li'l too close for comfort - too be honest.
And I cried while I was watching the news, not cuz Cecilia Zhang was dead, but cuz of all the violence, shootings and hate crimes that have been going on. And it made me realize how low we (as humans) can be at times.
I watched the "Jesus" movie on City TV while I was doing my physics homework and there was this one part where Satan's telling Jesus that His death would just cause Him unnecessary pain and suffering and that His death would be in vain, because in the future, people would kill each other in the name of Jesus Christ (i.e. the crusades), people would hate each other, and hurt each other. And right after I finish watching the "Jesus" movie, I watch the news - Cecilia Zhang's found dead 2 days before her 10th birthday, a motorcyclist dies, someone else gets shot, a mosque gets destroyed and vandalized with spray-painted messages saying, "Jesus rules".
What kind of world are we living in? What kind of country are we living in?
What kind of province are we living in? What kind of city are we living in? What kind of life are we living?
What kind of life are YOU living?
“We commit the Golden Rule to memory and forget to commit it to life.” – Unknown
How sad that this is so true...yet what are we - as individuals, as Christians, as a community, as God's hands and feet - going to do?
Before you point a finger at anyone else, make sure they won't have any reason to point a finger at you.
Before you judge anyone else,
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Sunday, March 28, 2004
Man...I really, really need to work on my time management=S I just spent 2-and-a-half hours on the computer clearing out my e-mail inbox from 74 messages to 18 messages! And yeah...I've still gotta do my physics and chem homework...and I still haven't had dinner yet=P
This weekend has been crazy!
Friday - I skipped ALL my classes, but physics (*gasp* Angela's skipping...tsk, tsk...hehe...). Don't worry, I had a good reason - 9 of us had to finish our design projects (so our teacher could drive it to the Design Exchange by 6pm) for a design competition. I went to school at 7:30am and left at 4:30pm!!! Then, I went to dinner with Celine and Hubert, and then straight to church for worship practice...
Friday nite and Saturday morning - went to bed late and woke up early, freaking out about the Chinese school homework that I had procrastinated on...to find out that it wasn't even due...the teacher just wrote the work on the board and didn't mention a due date, so I assumed it was due the first day back=P
The rest of Saturday consisted of a piano lesson and sandwich run downtown. It was nice out and it was pretty fun...but I was totally exhausted when I got home.
Today - church, lunch, rest, piano (master class - you get taught by another teacher in front of your own teacher and a bunch of other strangers=P), and here I am now...(I was actually supposed to go help out with answering phones for a Yee Hong Telethon thing, but I'm supposed to be busy doing homework right now=P hehe...=S Oh well...I had myself a cappucino at the central library...so I should be good for tonite=P
*sigh* It's hard to believe that March is almost over (uh oh - that means monthly report cards=S)...and that summer break is only 3 months away (seems like a long time at first, but if you think about it, June'll be here before you know it)! It's been one busy, jam-packed, emotional, joyful, and (for sure) one very, very memorable month=)
But...now I've really gotta go eat dinner and do that homework=S hehe...Have a great week, guys!
How does time fly so fast?
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Tuesday, March 23, 2004
A few nights ago, the first quote (see above) popped into my head as I was reflecting on my life... When I first came across it, I had made it my own prayer to God. And it wasn't until recently that I realized what a tough thing it is to have your heart broken by the things that break God's heart.
Crying. It's not something I like to do...but sometimes I just do...and there have been times when I don't even know why I do it. But I realized that when I cry, I cry out of joy for the blessings in my life...but more often I cry out of sorrow for the pain and suffering of others I know and love. And realizing this made me feel helpless and useless, because there's this joy I have that I can't seem to share...and there's this pain and sorrow that I can't seem to help others bear.
But then...I felt so foolish and self-centered to be saddened or burdened by this. I only see and share in the pain of the few I interact with in my small li'l world...while God (who knows, sees and feels all things)- how much more does He bear when He sees His creation suffering?
And I realized...that if you feel like there is nothing you can do for someone who is mourning, the greatest thing you can do is to pray with them, to mourn with them, to cry with them. I am not a person who is eloquent with words; words have a tendency of failing me. And it is only when words are useless that sayings like "actions speak louder than words" really ring true.
When tears fall,
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Sunday, March 21, 2004
I'm really wishing that this week wouldn't end - I've just had such a great week. Last nite, I stayed up until 2:30am or so sitting on my living room couch just thinking about the past week and a half and praising God for all He's done. At the same time, even though I was feeling such joy, I cried...cuz the reality was, I know there's a lot of people struggling with personal things - and I also know I may struggle through this upcoming week...to remember that God'll pull me through all the school work.
After this week, I wished that our lifestyles were more people-oriented than work-oriented...I've had sooo much fun catching up with friends and family and just enjoying each other's prescence - and I wish we could do that more often. Humans were designed to need companions and fellowship...and *sigh*...I just pray that we can have this quality of fellowship every week...
Anyhooey...I pray you all have a good week back to school - a good transition...and ability to keep accountable to the commitments you may have made to God this past week at TC, or in your personal time of reflection and prayer.
I just wanted to leave with this song I've been listening to this past week. It's "I Love You This Much", by Jimmy Wayne. It's a country song - yes...I'm not ashamed to admit it: I'm a country fan. But this song is really good, cuz Jimmy Wayne was abandonned by his father when he was young and grew up in a broken family...I hope you all like it as much as I do.
Amazed at all that's happened in one short week,
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Thursday, March 18, 2004
hehe...I'm sooooo happy, I feel like I'm gonna burst! hehe...like I wasn't happy enough already with my life now and having been able to spend soooo much time with my family and friends since the March Break began, my dad called the doctor's clinic today to confirm whether or not the ultrasound results came back. They did. AND everything's alright!!!
And I haven't been able to stop smiling ever since that=) hehe...life is good. God is good. (What am I saying!?!) God is GREAT!!!
I pray that you're all having a great March Break, cuz this is definitely my best March Break ever! God bless!
Can't stop smiling,
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Monday, March 15, 2004
FREEEEEEDOM!!! hehe...life is good=) The long-awaited March Break is finally here, I've had some time to hang out with friends and family, catch up on some sleep, and the ultrasound's done. I haven't got the results back - I'm not worried about that anymore.
No matter what the results are - "good" or "bad", I've set my mind on praising the Lord, because He is worthy of my praise just because He is God. And I know now, more than ever that even if I am to undergo another surgery, He'll be there every single step of the way to carry me through and He'll have His angels there to pick me up when I stumble.
I don't have too much homework...but I'm gonna try to get most of it done by tomorrow, so I don't have to worry about it later.
Life is soooo much easier when you give your worries to God. It's hard to surrender them at first - they feel so familiar - but it's sooooo relieving once you do. I haven't stopped smiling since last night. My mom and my aunt are starting to think I'm weird...hehe...but it's got them smiling, too=P hehe...smiles are definitely contagious=)
So, smile a little, laugh a little, cuz it'll make your day...and who knows? Maybe you'll help make someone else's day, too!
Happy beyond words=)
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Thursday, March 11, 2004
So...got back home from Kinko's, Second Cup and Loomis' with Cecilia. Feeling pretty good...just wishing it was Friday=)
Had my ultrasound today. It went pretty well - drank a good amount of water, didn't have to wait very long and the actual ultrasound didn't take very long either=) I'm glad it's done and over with...And I could feel people praying for me...Sounds a li'l freaky, but I could really feel that God was watching over me.
The lady who signed me in at the clinic was wearing a cross necklace - I dunno if she was actually a Christian or whether she was just wearing it as a fashion statement, but seeing it reminded me that Jesus didn't back out on me when He faced death on that cross 2000 years ago and He won't back out on me now.
Plus, Uncle Peter called around 4:30pm to see how I was doing...I told him TWO weeks ago that I was having an ultrasound, he actually remembered and gave me a call=) It was very sweet, cuz I thought he had called for my mom or dad, but he called for me=) It's good to know that people care=)
God is good - all the time.
A Jewish holocaust victim once said:
I believe.
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Sunday, March 7, 2004
Sooooo, after a late nite, a li'l over 3 hours of sleep, and a li'l over 4 hours of lying in my bed staring up at the ceiling, church, lunch, and a piano audition, here I am: exhausted, yet somehow refreshed; worried, yet
somehow relieved; tired, yet somehow happy; worn out, yet somehow satisfied.
Some of you probably know that I went out with a bunch of friends from church last nite to watch The Passion of The Christ. It was a very...(how should I say it?)...different experience compared to all other movies that I've watched in my life. I realized how desensitized I have become to seeing violence in the media...and I had to constantly remind myself that I wasn't just watching some other Hollywood movie with a lot of special effects, but that Jesus - Jesus Himself - went through all that pain and suffering for me!
The thing that struck me most was how many times Jesus could have bailed out...how many times He could have said, "No, God. I'm not doing it. They deserve eternal separation from You; they're not worthy of such a sacrifice." And even when He was hanging there on that cross, dying, there were still people mocking Him. "He saved others," they said, "but he can't save himself! Let this Christ,this King of Israel, come down now from the cross, that we may see and believe." (Mark 15:31-32)
But little did they know that He could have come down from that cross if He wanted to, He could've backed down if He wanted to, He could have summoned twelve legions of angels to come to His aid if He wanted to...but because He loves us soooo much, He would rather go through all that - to save us than to save Himself.
"Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends." (John 15:13)
But...I don't think God brought me to watch this movie just to remind me that He loves me, cuz I already know that...or that grace (even though it was free for me) did not come cheap. I think God wanted to remind me that Jesus bore any and every pain possible to man...and that there IS no sin too big for Him to forgive and there IS no trial He cannot sustain me through.
Some of you may be wondering what my li'l French quote means. I can tell you that 4 or 5 weeks ago, I could not have said this...but after what I have gone through these past couple of weeks, God has reassured me and has given me the strength to say it with great confidence, and this is that: "I do not know the plans of God...but I trust them."
In God I trust,
PS. I'm taking down all personal photos tonite...having been advised by a friend that it probably isn't the best idea to have so many photos up=P
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Thursday, March 4, 2004
Last nite at prayer meeting, this was a them that we focussed on...All the "great men of faith" had their own weakness (i.e. Moses, David, Gideon, etc.), and they all struggled with God - doubting their own abilities and capabilites - before humbly accepting their tasks.
It's so hard to comprehend that no sin is too big for God to forgive. Things that I've done or have left undone (which I knew God wanted me to do...) and the numerous times I keep falling back to the same temptations - how can anyone possibly have the patience to put up with such a screw-up, you know?
But no matter how many times you've messed up or what you've done (or haven't done), God can use you all the same. Gideon, the weakest of the weak, doubted his abilities to lead the Israelites against the Midianites, yet, with God on his side, the Midianites were defeated by Gideon's army of 300 men! How crazy is that!?!
So, after what I had thought would be a crazy stressed-out week, with God's grace, turned out to be pretty good. I'm learning to trust Him to pull me through...cuz after last week's ordeal, I seriously thought I was gonna have a mental breakdown. But God is good and He is faithful.
And next Thursday, I've got another ultrasound check-up...and yeah, I was pretty worried about it earlier, but surprisingly, with it only a week away, I'm actually a lot less worried than I've been in a long time=) God works in mysterious ways...
In awe of Him whom I trust,
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Tuesday, March 2, 2004
I can't believe it is STILL Tuesday!!! I kept thinking that i was Wednesday today. I had a "spare" period 2, cuz my French teacher had a meeting in the afternoon and needed time to prep and eat lunch. And yeah...it felt like an eternity sitting in that empty classroom with Steph as we each did our own homework...meh...oh well, I got some time to calm down before writing my physics test during period 3 - which went better than expected.
Also, weird thing happened at the end of the school day today. I was sitting in my half-empty chem class (people had to go practice for tomorrow's assembly) doing the work that our substitute teacher (Mr. Christtensen wasn't here today) had assigned, when Ms. Narraway announces on the PA that some weird substance had been sprayed in the front foyer and was causing some minor irritations, so everyone had to leave the school building 15 minutes early for them to "air out" the building. (Funny thing was that people were all crowding outside the main entrance of the school, so they were still in the viscinity of the mysterious substance=P)
Anyhoo, I've gotta go and finish that chem and physics homework, and study for tomorrow's math test (ewwww...compound interests + annuities + mortgages = headache).
Hitting the books,
PS. Thought this might bring a smile to your face=) I was going thru my photo album over the weekend and I found some old photos. hehe...Here's some crazy childhood memories with Cecilia=P
Talk about having a bad hair day!
My 1st B-Day:
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Monday, March 1, 2004
*sigh* I haven't had such a "refreshing" day in a while. I dunno if that's really the word for it...but today was a day that things didn't feel very rushed...and I had some time to breathe in between different parts of my day=)
I was supposed to have a chem test today, which Mr. Christensen totally forgot about...and I finally understand that weird physics cannon question about parabolic motion - all thanks to Dan! So...all there is left is studying for physics test tomorrow, a math test Wednesday, French dialogue for Thursday and a French make-up grammar test Friday=) I think I'll be fine once that physics test is over tomorrow=)
But yeah, I had more time to spend with my family these last 2 days (since it's Cecilia's b-day and all) and I've had more time to reflect on my own as well...and really...I feel kinda ashamed for never really seeing how blessed I am. When times are hard - yeah, they are hard, but God gave me soooooo many people to help me through - whether they knew it or not; whether it was a simple "hi", smile, hug, prayer or chat.
This applies especially at church and, even at school. I mean, I went to high school not really knowing anyone, but Celine and Jen (and back then, I didn't know them all that well either)! And now, so many friendships have developed since then - ones that I've taken for granted and some of whose value I've just begun to realize - and I'm so grateful for them=)
And I pray that I have been able to be there for you as you have all been there for me...The past few weeks, I've been seeing nothing but the flaws, the problems, the worries, but after taking the time and thinking about it all, there's always something to be thankful for - no matter what situation I may find myself in...I've just gotta remember to not dwell on the present problems...and remember all the times in which God as pulled me through in the past and have faith that He will do so again=)
Counting my blessings...
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Monday, March 1, 2004
Yeah, yeah...I know I used this quote on my blog before, but it just fits the occasion so well, you know? Wait a sec...you probably don't know, do you? hehe=P...so, I guess I'll just have to make it blunt.
It's Cecilia's birthday today, everybody!!! (hehe...HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY, SIS!)
Here's a pic from a Thanksgiving luncheon last October...
And is there plenty to be thankful for or what! hehe...Thanx sis for being there when I needed you and for making my 16 (soon-to-be-17) years of life here on Earth ever so amusing=) I'm looking forward to the rest of this crazy life with you being my sister and life-long friend. Wish you all the best!
Born to be sisters,
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