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Return to the Dog House!

Quote of the Blog:
"You are the light that's leading me to the place where I find peace again.
You are the strength that keeps me walking. You are the hope that keeps me trusting.
You are the life to my soul. You are my purpose. You are everything."
- Everything, Lifehouse

Monday, April 26, 2004
8:03pm

hehe...soooooo happy=) Well, actually...I was pretty stressed out at school, but anyhoo...after school everything started to look up a bit=)

I received 2 early b-day presents today:
1) Received a letter from Samaritan's Purse saying that blankets have been donated in my "honour" for my b-day by my dear cousin, Vicki=)
2) Cecilia and Howard pitched in together and got me the Lifehouse CD (No Name Face)!!!

I love their songs...their second CD (which I had borrowed from Vicki last week) isn't as good, but the songs on this one are really meaningful and catchy=)

Anyhoo...this past weekend has been busy overall, but not too bad. Highlight of it was probably the WAY committee meeting at Charlotte and Josh's...and (of course) playing with their miniature Schnauzer, Rocky (or is it Rockie?)=P

Someone asked me why it was that I loved dogs so much. I'm really not sure...I've never had a dog, and I never knew anybody during my childhood who had a dog...but somehow I'm just attracted to them.

I find that whenever I'm over at someone's house and I'm alone with their dog, I'd just play with him until he's tired, pet him until he lies down, and sit there beside him on the floor until he falls asleep...and even though I don't know them and they have never met me before, it's as if they know what I'm thinking, feeling...and somehow we can just enjoy each other's company just for what it is.

Communication without the words...you know?

I feel weird saying this...hehe...but I guess...when there's no one around to talk to, or when there's no one there who's willing to listen, or when you just can't seem to get the right words out to express what's inside...it's nice to just be able to sit with someone...hehe...(and when a person's not available, then an animal...) and just be.

It's hard to find time just to be...I'm so used to running around and doing. Need to learn to stop and slow down once in a while...especially yesterday at church...I felt sooo disoriented handing stuff out...and it seemed like I saw so many familiar faces and people I hadn't talked to for a while...yet...I didn't take the time to stop and chat=(

And with my b-day coming up...I really wanna take the time to tell those who care for me and support me that I appreciate them...*sigh*...but looking at my schedule...seems like a vicious cycle of busyness this week...=S

Just wanting to be,
     Angela

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Quote of the Blog:
"I should be sleeping 'stead of keeping these late hours I've been keeping.
I've been pacing and retracing every step of every move.
And even though I'm feeling so right,
I'm so happy - still I know I should be sleeping 'stead of dreaming about you."
- I Should Be Sleeping, Emerson Drive

Wednesday, April 21, 2004
11:31pm

Wow! I can't believe it's been almost 2 weeks since I last updated this!!! Yeah...I've been a li'l busy lately and yeah...tonite's the first of many nites where I've had no homework (well...technically I had a bit of physics, but I got that done earlier on in the day=P)

Anyhoo, I went to bed kinda late last nite, so I think I'm gonna go catch up on some sleep...or then study a bit for those upcoming Chinese oral exams=S I can't believe the "end" of the year's already here!!! Where did the time go!?!

Meh...better go to sleep before my dad gets worried=S

Sleepy...
     Angela

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Quote of the Blog:
"Could you let down your hair and be transparent for a while - just a little while? See if you’re human after all. Honesty is a hard attribute to find when we all want to seem like we've got it all figured out. I may be the first to say that I don't have a clue. I don't have all the answers. And God, I pretend like I do. Just trying to find my way. Trying to find my way - the best that I know how." - Trying, Lifehouse

Friday, April 9, 2004
6:06pm

How do the minutes and the hours pass so quickly?...yet at the same time...How does time seem to stop? How come a minute seems capable of containing an eternity?

Last nite was a lot of fun...I wish it had lasted a li'l longer. hehe...I stayed over at church with a bunch of other people...most of them pulled an all-niter, but I managed to get a li'l more than 4 hours of sleep (and then another 3 or so after I got home).

It's funny...I realized today that when I get agitated at someone, I try not to show it that much...I dunno if that's a good thing or a bad thing=S And also, I find I'm better at keeping it in when someone else is more agitated at that person than I am...cuz I see (from, I guess, a "third person" point of view) that it's not a good thing to be upset with that person. It actually reminds me to be more patient...and helps me to to try to "mediate" between the other parties...

It's odd, cuz I find myself seeing things from the others' points of view...yet there are times when I wish I didn't see it from their eyes...so I could feel better (or more justified) about being mad at them=P

Well...wish I could write more, but Dad's calling for dinner! Gotta run!

Loving,
cuz He first loved me,
     Angela

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Quote of the Blog:
The woman was silent for a moment.
Then she asked the Silversmith, "How do you know when the silver is fully refined?"
He smiled at her and answered, "Oh that's easy - when I see My image in it."

Wednesday, April 7, 2004
10:39pm

I had started a blog about a half-hour ago, but I forgot to save and yeah...I clicked some button and lost it all=P So I'll try to remember everything that I wrote in the other one...

Anyhoo...I'm pretty tired - I got a total of 8-1/2, if not 9, hours of sleep last nite, but it feels like I hadn't slept at all. It's a good thing I finished all my homework at school (except for a bit of math - but that's done now).

The main thing I wanted to do in this blog was pose a question. Frankly, it's a question to which I'm not really sure I want to know the answer. But, anyhow, my question is: How many of you actually think I'm "perfect"?

Seriously, most of you here check my blog occassionally (if not regularly) and at least know of me (if not know me well). You see me live my life day by day like anyone else. I go to school, listen in class, do my work, chat with my friends, stress out about school like anyone else...yet how is it that I get classified as "Miss Goody-Two-Shoes"?...or as a "perfectionist"?

Is it so hard to see that I (like anyone else in this world) like to be lazy every now and then, procrastinate, go crazy around friends and just live life?

The ironic thing is that I've been called to try to live a life of perfection - to be like Jesus. But having people just assume that I AM perfect is so hard, cuz I'm expected to be a person I'll never be - at least not in this life.

They see me as someone that I am not. They love me as someone that I am not. They expect me to be someone that I am not.

Who am I? Am I who you think I am? Am I who I think I am? Or am I who I think you think I am?

iMpeRfEcT mE,
     Angela

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Quote of the Blog:
"Faith is to believe what you do not see; the reward for this faith is to see what you believe." - St. Augustine

Tuesday, April 6, 2004
5:15pm

I had a pretty good day at school today - finished all my math and French homework at school, got some homework from physics (but the lesson today was pretty cool - it was an intro to the optics unit) and a few questions for chem (but we did a lab in class which was better than having to sit and listen to Mr. Christensen talk about batting averages all day=P).

But yeah...it was good until I got home...There has been a bit of tension in the house lately. My parents have been really stressed recently trying to help my aunt figure out her passport and health card renewal applications...and yeah...crying can be such a energy-consuming activity...

Anyways, I came down to the basement to check my e-mail, to find that I only had one new e-mail (from someone on the softball team I was on last summer). It was very encouraging and it came at the perfect time. God's timing IS perfect=) And yeah, I couldn't get it to send properly through e-mail, so I figured I'd put it on my blog instead.

Place your mouse on the X below and drag to the O.

X Even though you can't see Him, God is there! O

Such a simple message, yet so true.

Searching for the invisible,
     Angela

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Quote of the Blog:
"A little faith will bring your soul to heaven, but a lot of faith will bring heaven to your soul." - Dwight L. Moody

Monday, April 5, 2004
8:23pm

hehe...so you're probably wondering why I'm writing 2 blogs in one day - if you don't know already, the truth is: I dunno either=P hehe...

Anyhoo, I decided to add a few new Dog Bones...if you wanna check 'em out, just click on the link!

I've been trying to fix up the Dog Bone page, but it's not really co-operating with me...and it's already 9:35pm=P So yeah, I better go finish my homework!

G'nite,
     Angela

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Quote of the Blog:
"All I have seen teaches me to trust the Creator for all I have not seen." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

Monday, April 5, 2004
1:41pm

Salut, mes amis! hehe...Je ne pense pas que je vous a dit que j'irai à l’Université Sainte-Anne (à Nouvelle-Écosse) en juillet. J'y irai pour un programme de français pour 5 semaines. Je suis très excitée et un peu nerveuse.

Translation (for all you who don't understand French=P):
Hi, my friends! hehe...I do not think that I have told you that I will be going to the Saint Anne University (in Nova Scotia) in July. I will be going there for a French program for 5 weeks. I am very excited and a bit nervous.

Yup...I got confirmation of my bursary earlier last week, but didn't get stuff from the actual university until today. (Oh yeah...I had a half day today for all you who may be wondering if I'm skipping school to update my blog at 1:41pm=P)

But yeah...I'm excited, cuz this is the first time I'm going away on my own without the company of any family or friends. I'm kinda nervous, cuz...haha...I dunno how I'm gonna survive, cuz I'll be miles away from anyone I know, I'll have to do my own laundry=P, find my own way around a foreign place, speak French 24/7 (they apparently kick you out if they catch you speaking, reading, listening to anything, but French, more than 3 times=S)and pray that I don't get homesick...But thank goodness meals are provided, so, at least, I don't have to worry about feeding myself...=P

Overall, it's a pretty good deal, cuz I only have to pay $150 for registration and the cost of transportation (the government pays for the rest - i.e. tuition, meals, room & board, and all the other mandatory activities/sports - a total of $1900CDN!)

But yeah...I think I'll be really homesick...seeing that the Maritimes is a li'l too far for anyone from home to visit=( And I'll have to try ad find a church to go to over there, too...

Anyhoo, other things that happened recently in my life - it's been confirmed that my aunt (who has been staying with us for the past 3 months or so) will be saying her oath of citizenship on the 15th, but the thing is there's something about her getting her health card renewed that may require her to stay another 6 months or so=S I dunno...I don't really mind her staying with us and her staying in my room...but I think it's causing my parents a bit of stress having to take care of her...

Also, 30 Hour Famine on Saturday and Sunday went pretty well=) I didn't raise as much as I used to, cuz I only got the form a week before fasting this year...and I didn't ask too many people...but yeah...if you wanna help children in 3rd world countries, I'm sure there's people at your school or church who is doing it that you can sponsor...if not, you can always sponsor me=) Bits of change is fine...a li'l goes a long way...and well, if everyone gives a bit of spare change, it all adds up=)

Congrats to everyone who survived the famine=) And a big THANX to everyone who contributed through prayer, emotional, spiritual and financial support=)

Li'l me,
     Angela

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Quote of the Blog:

"Respire un bon coup Ne reste pas debout Ferme tes yeux        J'te promets que tu iras mieux"

"Take a good breath Don't remain standing Close your eyes I promise you that it will be better"

- Poussière d'ange (Angel Dust), Ariane Moffatt

Thursday, April 1, 2004
5:42pm

Man...it's almost 6pm=S I haven't even started my homework yet...hehe...Anyways, I just wanted to drop by and leave a short message=)

Today was a loooong day at school, especially since I didn't get much sleep last nite...but anyways, the best part of my day was probably French class. (Plus: I got my monthly report cards yesterday and my French mark is my highest...so I'm happy)

Anyways, our teacher played a song, "Poussière d'ange", by Ariane Moffatt. It's a very pretty song...hehe...makes a very good lullaby=P

The lyrics were kinda hard to translate...and hard to understand, cuz it's all very metaphorical. The general idea is about a girl who's debating about abortion, cuz she's just found out that she's pregnant...

Just click on the link (see above), and then click on the "écoute" button for "Poussière d'ange" to hear the song.

Poussière d'ange Respire un bon coup Ne reste pas debout Ferme tes yeux J'te promets que tu iras mieux T'as reçu un grand coup Un coup de vie dans l'ventre Un coup de vent dans ta vie Mais reste calme, je t'en supplie Juste au mauvais moment Une poussière d'ange t'es tombée dedans Tu f'rais une super maman Mais pas maintenant...non pas maintenant Un p'tit colimaçon T'a pris pour sa maison C'est pas une fille, pas un garçon Pas un bélier ni un poisson Oublie ça c'est pas possible Tu perdrais l'équilibre Prends ma main je t'emmène loin On s'ra d'retour demain matin Juste au mauvais moment Une poussière d'ange t'es tombée dedans Tu f'rais une super maman Mais pas maintenant...non pas maintenant On s'en va reporter L'ange dans ses souliers Il s'est trompé mais c'est pas grave Il peut revenir si tu restes sage

Angel Dust Take a good breath Don't remain standing Close your eyes I promise you that it will be better You have received a big shock A blow of a lifetime to the stomach A gust of wind in your life But remain calm, I beg you Just at the worst moment Angel dust fell inside you You would be a great mom But not now...no, not now A small snail Took you for his house It is not a girl, not a boy Not a ram nor a fish Forget that this is not possible You would lose balance Take my hand, I take you away We will return tomorrow morning Just at the worst moment Angel dust fell inside you You would be a great mom But not now...no, not now We will bring back The angel in his shoes He was mistaken but this is not serious                 He may return if you remain wise

So, yeah...I hope you all enjoy it as much as I did=) Now, I've really gotta go do my homework=P

Paix est avec vous,
     Angela

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