thoughts of the day

i've been doubting everything lately...

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Thursday
1/7/99

UrielsPoet: RohanDor: I'm not gonna message her. if she wants to talk to me, she can. I'm not being mean, I just don't want to intrude on her
NoirAranea: And?
UrielsPoet: i dunno... kyle's been worried...
UrielsPoet: talk to him.
NoirAranea: About what?
UrielsPoet: that you don't hate him. RohanDor: I've just been doubting a lot of things lately. everything that I thought would always be there has gone RohanDor: my band, my grades, Em... RohanDor: I kind of didn't want her to see the other poem. I'm not upset. at least it shows that she's stilll a little interested in me
UrielsPoet: tell him you are still interested.
NoirAranea: LAURA! SHUT THE FUCK UP!
UrielsPoet: :::shrinks:::
NoirAranea: :::growls::: Sorry... NoirAranea: I just can't tell him that!
NoirAranea: I have too much other stuff on my mind.
NoirAranea: Not having a boyfriend is relieving.
NoirAranea: I'm not about to go running back because he's upset.
NoirAranea: He said he was okay with it. If he wasn't, he should have said so.
UrielsPoet: i think he's ok with it... UrielsPoet: stop it. damn it... em isn't gone. she'll never be completely gone unless you really fuck up. RohanDor: I know. but it will be a long time before I will be able to look at her as just a friend ...if i have to
NoirAranea: :::growls::: I don't want to hear it. If he wants to say it, he can fucking say it to me.
UrielsPoet: alright.
NoirAranea: Sorry...I was happy...damn it. I had a good day...
UrielsPoet: be happy. but don't hurt people. that's not ok.
NoirAranea: LAURA! :::seethes:::
UrielsPoet: i'm just warning you. it would be bad. and you'd feel bad. i dunno. what am i supposed to do about all this?
NoirAranea: Nothing, considering it's my fucking problem!
UrielsPoet: you asked me once if he was stealing me away from you...
NoirAranea: Not exactly what I meant...
UrielsPoet: what did you mean?
NoirAranea: It's one of those, I wasn't worried about losing him to you, I was more worried about losing you to him.
UrielsPoet: well, that's what i meant
NoirAranea: Fall for him if you want... Jesus, not like I can do anything.
UrielsPoet: i didn't mean it like i'm leaving you. but i really like him. isn't what you always wanted?
NoirAranea: Laura, right now I want space.
NoirAranea: Time to think. To not have to worry about bull shit.
UrielsPoet: like me?
NoirAranea: No, like Kyle. And you keep throwing it in my face.
UrielsPoet: i'll stop. but... :::sighs::: i'll stop. NoirAranea: Laura, I just...fuck...talk to you later...

- fallen

previous thoughts of the day

(thoughts of the day before this one may not have links to all of the other thoughts of the day)

Pride noiraranea
"I am woman" dollpini
the Dream Train
excerpts
I Do Not Want This... by Trent
There once was a little girl... 2 (y'all better read this one...)
Everything
Thank You
Wrestling Woman Inards
School and Psychoanalysis...
Vengeance!!!
Brandon
listening to Bush and feeling sassy...
The once was a little girl.... 1
I want to believe
Timing by RohanDor
...for you have left your first love.
On Love
the Mystical, Magic Land of Algebra2
Something Wicked This Way Comes
What does one do?
Cold Sweat Nightmares
Hate Me
Personal Inventory by Dollphini
First Contact, with Kyle
:::whispers::: Lime-Green Elephant
"They say that sex between two people who really hate each other..."
Boys are Yucky
What happens if we all fall down?
Vegas
BluesMan84
Politics and Wealth
The Nature of God
The Nature of Man
Beauty
Only the Good Die Young by Dollphini
Ode to Shawn

poetry
the embrace
about me
links

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