Thursday
2/22/99
It's just another lonely day in a seemingly endless stream of lonely days. It's just another question in a series of questions that no one will answer. I sat down to write a great novel and I could not get past the first line. There is so much I don't know... politics, and world events, and Hollywood, and the music industry, and movies and food and.... There is just so much. But does any of that matter? I began to think that there was no GOD, that there was no higher anything and that all we are, are strings of repetition. But if there is no god, how could we go about living our lives? There has to be something greater than chance... But what is greater than chaos? Perhaps it is the all knowing. Perhaps it is the infinite and all controlling hand that drives this Earth in revolutions around our melted sun... Where did the sun come from? And if light rays never die, will my face be bounced off of these walls forever? How can I even begin to ponder forever? eternity? All these thoughts are swarming and echoing in my head like the feeling I get when I attempt to contemplate Einstein's theory of relativity while in a moving vehicle. Is the care moving, or am I? The universe is expanding, I think we're all moving. It's hard to think about all of that empty space while looking at these white-hot, blank, nothing walls. I am so lonely. I feel like I'm falling into the white pits of my own eyes. I am a tiny dot, fading into the distant never-ness, eternity, empty empty stars.
- fallen
previous thoughts of the day
50th Thought Special!!!
Hands
Role Reversal... by Emily
The Collective Mind
Primal... by Elkantar
Brad #11
Crush
Thought of My Day... by Elkantar
excerpts from my dissertation on life
Knee-high, Leather, 6 inch Heels
Jesus
I'm doubting everything lately... rohandor
Pride noiraranea
"I am woman" dollpini
the Dream Train
excerpts
I Do Not Want This... by Trent
There once was a little girl... 2 (y'all better read this one...)
Everything
Thank You
Wrestling Woman Inards
School and Psychoanalysis...
Vengeance!!!
Brandon
listening to Bush and feeling sassy...
There once was a little girl.... 1
I want to believe
Timing by rohandor
...for you have left your first love.
On Love
the Mystical, Magical Land of Algebra2
Something Wicked This Way Comes
What does one do?
Cold Sweat Nightmares
Hate Me
Personal Inventory by Dollphini
First Contact, with Kyle
:::whispers::: Lime-Green Elephant
"They say that sex between two people who really hate each other..."
Boys are Yucky
What happens if we all fall down?
Vegas
BluesMan84
Politics and Wealth
The Nature of God
The Nature of Man
Beauty
Only the Good Die Young by Dollphini
Ode to Shawn
poetry
short stories and other literary works
about me
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