You’ve suffered a lot of hurt and pain because you were in a relationship that went bad. You’re now feeling that you cannot make it on your own because you have been conditioned by that loved one or close friend. You can’t help but think it is not fair to you because you put so much time and energy into this relationship to make it work. Alone and faced with the emotions from pain and sorrow it’s hard to think you have to start all over again. You try to come around and smile a little over the pain but you always have that flash back and then you start hurting all over again even feeling guitly because you smiled.
Maybe you have put a lot of time and prayer into a decision or an establishment, only to witness that you didn't wait for the right answer and watched the decision make about face and the establishment plummet to the ground. Then you struggle with disappointment because not too many people believed in you when you went to them with your ideas or final decision. You are embarrassed to even have such a conception and humiliated to where it becomes unbearable because others know of your failure.
In your brokenness, all you have left is a wounded spirit. You know not it is not right to question God, but you cannot help to ask—why God. You want closure, but no avail. This “thing” just keeps gnawing and picking at you. While you suffer from the deep pain inside you, you pray, then your prayers turn to weeping and you have yourself a pity party while licking our wounds. God knows and he sees all. He sees your pain and he hears your cry. So he starts to heal you and in your healing, you might learn that God just wanted you to come close to him with your heart. Not in your worship, not in your praise, or song but your pain where only he has power to heal you. God allows us to suffer a contrite heart so that we can draw near to him not with just our mouths and our lips as he says in Matt 15:8 but draw near to him with our hearts and the only way to do that is to be broken. Sometimes we get so caught up in our flesh God has to break us. The life of a love one is not in our hands when God says it’s over. The prayers are heard but not honored because they go against his will. It’s not up to us to choose what day and time for our own visions and dreams to go forth. The only time we really listen to him is through our tears or when our backs against the wall.
Even a good shepherd breaks the leg of his sheep that keeps going astray. But in-turn, he nurses that sheep back to its health and keep it on the right path, careful to never let it go astray again. With his own, God will do the same. As painful and humiliating our situations may seem, God will heal wounds and mend broken hearts as we draw near to him. For “He” is the mender of broken hearts and a contrite heart.
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