Thou_Art_With

Just when I made it through many circumstances, I wanted a new beginning. Feeling all that I had been through, Heaven would just open up its windows and pour out my blessings so I could start all over again without any challenges. God opened that door and allowed me to relocate and start a new life.

While settling in my new surroundings, waiting for Heaven, time passed as an un-easiness was stirring in my spirit. I could almost say, it was similar to that of the natives. When they heard a certain sound of the drums, that meant trouble was on its way. In between the whispers of encouraging words, I heard doubt. Feeling restless, I became overwhelmed in situations. While stretched to my wits end, if one drop of water had fallen on me, I would have snapped. Every step I made was sinking sand. My sleep was disturbed, I carried guilt feelings of being punished and not worthy of the blessings I thought I would receive.

In my humility, I kept my problems to myself to hold on to my dignity. Perplexed, trying to figure out what was going on or where did I go wrong to go through this again. I had to accept a lot of things I could not change. Feeling deserted because Jesus had not answered my call. In fear, walking the floor praying in the spirit, pleading the blood of Jesus against what was coming next. In my despair, laying in fetal position; with a cry out to the Lord, from the pit of my stomach. All I could squeeze out was sobs of; Lord…why don’t you come and see about me; what have I done to deserve this...then groan and moan until I would feel relief.

So caught up in my pain and suffering, in other words, "The Job Syndrome," I didn’t realize, that in that uneasiness I was feeling, God was warning me. That warning was for the test I was about to go through to lay the foundation for my new beginning. His words of encouragement were merely telling me, no matter what it all looked like, trust him. Had I trusted him all the way I could have looked at my circumstances in perspective to avoid the struggles. It would have been much easier to be "clothe in humility" knowing that I would be uplifted and "humbling myself under the mighty hand of God, will exalt me in due time" 1Pet 5:5-6. When I felt stretched, deserted, humiliated and ready to give up, I should have remembered that in my fear, "Yeah thou I walk through the valley of the shadow of death I will fear no evil for Thou Art With Me." There are things we can not see and far beyond our understanding. That’s why the Holy Spirit intercess in helping our prayer and supplications when we don’t know what to say or ask for; Rom 8:26. Jesus is right there behind the scenes calling all the shots, making ways out of no way, making demands and comands on our behalf. He’s moving stumbling blocks in our paths, while he goes before us to prepare, working in our favor.

Instead of stretching arms towards heaven to receive, we need to look down in reverence and see how Jesus fights our battles while we stand shaking in our boots when he gives us power and authority to tread over enemies; Lk 10:19. We need to look around at the fortress he has been, protecting us when we ourselves made wrong decisions in our lives. We need to look behind at our christian journey how Jesus carried us through and never grew faint nor gave up when we brought along our extra baggage and not once did he complain.

So I encourage all, as I encourage myself, look ahead and thank the Lord for what he’s going to do, look around and thank him for his safe keeping, look behind and thank him for what he’s already done, and most of all; look down and thank him for what he’s doing now. So hold on and trust in God. Although it linger wait! Sometimes our angels have to fight and our blessings can be delayed, Dan 10:20. But no matter how much I stumbled in my faith, the Lord spoke to me and said, don’t worry Vernetha, "Thou Art With Me."

Thank you and may God add a blessing to the reader.

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Thou Art With
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Vernetha Mims2002