This is my very first finished and posted Fan Fiction. I was a little nervous to put this up on a page, but with encouragement from many wonderful people I did. And the response has definately been worth it. Thank you all so very much for accepting me and my stories.

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I just want to take this opportunity to thank Mishakal for helping me through some of the rough parts. She gave me some interesting thoughts and ideas for this story.

This story has won an award!! Woohoo!! I'm so excited, my very first award. Thank you to Inside Backstreet for their recognition.

CHAPTER 1: Mondays: Gotta Love 'Em...or Maybe Not

CHAPTER 2: First Night in Tampa...the Loneliness Begins...NOW!!

CHAPTER 3: WORKWORKWORK...Lotsa Fun...NOT!

CHAPTER 4: A Night Out With Nick Carter...Kind Of...

CHAPTER 5: Home Again...Yay!

CHAPTER 6: Another Average Day...Okay Maybe Not *SO* Average

CHAPTER 7: A Night Out With the Backstreet Boys...IRL, Not On Video

CHAPTER 8: Friends Some Of The Things You Have To Do

CHAPTER 9: Show Me The Meaning Of Being Lonely

CHAPTER 10: Actions Speak Louder Than Words

CHAPTER 11: Once Upon a Time...

CHAPTER 12: Shopping With Backstreet...

CHAPTER 13: Love Letters...

CHAPTER 14: Dancing, Cat Fights, and Walks on the Beach...

CHAPTER 15: Reunions and Unexpected Connections...

CHAPTER 16: Caught In The Middle...

CHAPTER 17: From Fantasy to Reality...

CHAPTER 18: From Jaymz to Sarah...

CHAPTER 19: Alesha's Universal Experience...

CHAPTER 20: Lori's Universal Experience...

CHAPTER 21: Quiet Time...

CHAPTER 22: Sweet Desires...

CHAPTER 23: Annoying Jesters...

CHAPTER 24: Scotland and the Simple Things...

CHAPTER 25: Picnics, Carriages, and Beaches...

CHAPTER 26: 4-Year Olds...

CHAPTER 27: Broken Hearts and Broken Bones...

CHAPTER 28: The Day Before...

CHAPTER 29: Intimate Goodbyes...Part I

CHAPTER 30: Intimate Goodbyes...Part II

CHAPTER 31: Goodbye Promises...

CHAPTER 32: The Flight...

CHAPTER 33: Backstreet Fan Fury Initiation...

CHAPTER 34: To Kiss An Angel...

CHAPTER 35: After the Show…

CHAPTER 36: Confusion, Loyalty and Threats…

CHAPTER 37: Walking Away…

CHAPTER 38: Goodbye -- For Now...

CHAPTER 39: Unsettling Revelations…

CHAPTER 40: Deceiving Appearances…

CHAPTER 41: New Friends...

CHAPTER 42: Same Show, Different Night…Kind Of…

CHAPTER 43: Reaching Out…

CHAPTER 44: Swept Away…

CHAPTER 45: Leaving Again…

CHAPTER 46: Surprising Propositions…

CHAPTER 47: The Arrival…

CHAPTER 48: Hello...Again...

CHAPTER 49: Jealous Intentions...

CHAPTER 50: Stormy Situations...

CHAPTER 50: Stormy Situations...Part II

CHAPTER 51: Forbidden Beginnings...

CHAPTER 52: After the Storm…

CHAPTER 53: Snapshots...

CHAPTER 54: Special Dedications…

CHAPTER 55: ChitChat...

CHAPTER 56: To Avoid Regrets...

CHAPTER 57: Family Promises...

CHAPTER 58: Not So Guilty Anymore...

CHAPTER 59: Playing Dumb...

CHAPTER 60: Boring Bus Rides...

CHAPTER 61: Home Sweet Home...

CHAPTER 62: Disappearing...

CHAPTER 63: Confessions...

CHAPTER 64: Another Day...

CHAPTER 65: Ghosts...

CHAPTER 66: Night Before Freedom…

CHAPTER 67: Friends and Family...

CHAPTER 68: Devious Plans...

CHAPTER 69: Endless Goodbyes...

CHAPTER 70: Confused Lonliness...

CHAPTER 71: Months of Pain...

CHAPTER 72: A New Start...

CHAPTER 73: Almost Normal...

CHAPTER 74: Almost Perfect...

CHAPTER 75: Sleepless Nights...

CHAPTER 76: Letters From Comics...

CHAPTER 77: Confessions of Love and Ties Unbreakable…

CHAPTER 78: Meetings…

CHAPTER 79: Memories…

CHAPTER 80: Confusion…

CHAPTER 81: Painful Questions...

CHAPTER 82: Revelations...

CHAPTER 83: Strange Gifts...

CHAPTER 84: Going Away...

CHAPTER 85: Anticipation...

CHAPTER 86: I Came All The Way Here…For This?

CHAPTER 87: Media Conferences…

CHAPTER 88: Old Friends…

Epilogue: And Forever Begins…

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