This is one of those times I get stuck between being a hip, progressive and a closed-minded reactionary. I know...two extremes, but bear with me for a minute.

I'm not going to go into the details of my relationship with this person. Let's just say a friend of mine recently sent me an e-mail announcing the birth of her baby. To be honest, the person lives in another city and we haven't really corresponded in a while. I didn't know she was pregnant. In fact, I thought she was divorced - but I guess she got back together with the dude.

So the announcement included a link to an online company where people post pictures. So I thought I'd check out the cute pictures of the little baby. Turns out the pictures included the actual birthing. Not what I was expecting!

So should I be ooged out by this or should I be celebrating the gift of life? I think it was maybe the surprise of it - most people don't send pictures of that stuff to others.

I do have a few contradictions like this. I'm probably one of the most sexually open people I know, yet am hideously repressed when it comes to relationships. And let's not get into my treehugger/meat-eating dilema. I guess that's what makes humans interesting - and a big pain in the ass.

All I know is that I'm gonna have bad dreams tonight.