22:27EST-FRI-8/31/2001
- Wow, I had something really neat to talk about but of course I forgot it. I've heard other people say that this happens to them as well so I guess they suck as bad as I do. I tell them that too. I make a lot of friends that way, I'm sure. Anyway, I have the plans to make Mind Erasers written down on a piece of paper in my wallet. It calls for 1/3 Kahlua, 1/3 of Vodka, and 1/3 of Sprite or 7-up. It's a damned good shooter. It's not as tasty as a Peanut Butter and Jelly Sandwich shot (odd mix of liquor) but it's significantly larger. Seeing as how Kahlua is only something like 40 proof and Vodka is generally 80, I figured I would try making one with Ice 101 instead of the Vodka. It'll taste much different but I'd like to see how it turns out. I'll know tomorrow night.
1:18EST-THU-8/30/2001
- You ever get a craving for anything in particular? Boy, I sure do... Of course, it doesn't help that I'm a hard-core hedonist. Heh heh heh. Right now, I'd really looooove to have a Nutty Buddy right about now. Mmmm... I've even checked the snack machines in the cafe and they don't have one. Bastardos! Damned again...
18:26EST-WED-8/29/2001
- Cigarettes. They suck. I still like them but I don't want to smoke one right now. I'm trying to quit for good. Shouldn't be too hard, right? I've only been smoking for a couple of months or so. I feel like crap already and I can't stand the taste of the fuckers. Mostly, I just like having something to do with my hands. When I'm at home, this isn't a problem but when I'm at work, it's quite another. I will have to find another vice to take it's place. I've been gnawing on my fingernails like a mad crazy fiend. In fact, I want a cigarette right now since I just finished a call with a customer who has been bent over the wrong way a few times too many and decided I was going to be his sounding board. Luckily, I don't give a damn about his problems so it doesn't get to me but acting like I care for eleven hours a day is exhausting!
15:05EST-SUN-8/26/2001
- Wow, what a weekend. When I talked the other day of the drama on the horizon, I figured that I was the only one plotting. I was wrong. Yesterday I sobered up for a few hours and thought about the events. Drama = Chaos. Chaos is hard to plan. Especially once I realized that instead of just me, there are easily 5 people plotting within a similar circle of events. I must now try to make sure I know the motivations of the others. This is tricky. :) I'm still waiting to measure the repercussions of what happened last night. From what I can tell, two people will be happier, but that's going to change their plans so I have to take that into consideration with my plans. Here's the trick: I originally didn't have any plans of my own. I was drawn into this and now I'm trying to navigate a social mine field to make sure everyone gets what they want by hook or by crook and not have people think I'm a scumbag for my methods to achieve results. I wish I would have made it into the Marines. Dying was a real bitch. I would have been a perfect officer.
19:27EST-FRI-8/24/2001
- For all you flash freaks (no, I really do mean freaks) you might enjoy the following links: Weeeeeeeeeee! and Cow. I know that only freaks would enjoy it because I laughed my ass off. I'm having Patrick rip the audio so I can burn it to CD and listen to it in my car. Great stuff! I hope you enjoy it as much as I did.
0:07EST-FRI-8/24/2001
- Oh, boy! I'm back in the drama again. I have secret missions, covert ops, plans within plans within plans within the course of a single weekend. If I come out of this clean, I'll be really happy. Of course, I'm never going to tell you guys. Well, maybe five years from now. I'll still probably have this page. A shrine to my own greatness. That was a joke. Anyway, this Saturday I have to finish planning how I'm going to handle some situations, get some sleep, read some more of the many Richard Marcinko books Lucas is loaning me, go play with guns, take some speed, have a LAN party, hang out with friends, have a beer, and commence drama. I wonder what I'll do on Sunday?
0:50EST-MON-8/13/2001
- I like finding out what people actually think about me some times. It helps to keep my ego in check. The other day it seems some friends of mine were sitting around getting drunk and exchanging 'The First Time I Met Shane...' stories where they talk about how they met me and what their first impressions were. All except for one person, I think they all disliked me at first. I laughed nervously when I found out about this. I knew about a few of them but to find out that it was pretty universal was actually kind of a relief. Strangely enough, they started to like me and soon became my friends. I guess strange things DO happen. This would explain my sparse (and rocky) dating history. On the other hand, I don't have to worry any more about making a good first impression. I'll just accept that it won't happen and move on. On the other hand, I was talking to a girl I play pool with and found out that the women that come to our parties all believe my sexual experience to be 'in the high eighties or triple digits'. HAHAHAHAHA!!! Proof that they don't know me too well. I'm glad to know that I am -vastly- over rated just like most of the movies that have come out of Hollywood lately. I need to find out who my advertising agency is and give them a raise.
18:02EST-THU-8/9/2001
- This is great! A friend of mine from work named Ryan has been spouting off great things all day. One of which I just HAD to share with you all. 'I used to always be high on life, but I developed a tolerance'. HAHAHAHAHA
3:44EST-SUN-8/5/2001
- I quit smoking today. It hasn't been very long since I started so hopefully this won't take too long. The worst part is not having something to do with my hands. Much to many people's disbelief, you can't just play with yourself all the time. A lot of the time, yes, but certainly not all the time. It's those times when I am most vulnerable.
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